ACM, SM, lesion in C cord causing abnormal EKG of Heart

October 28, 2008

Hello to All,

Just had an EKG done on my heart and it detected some minor abnormality. For the

past several mths. I have been feeling symptoms with my heart!! I knew this was

coming as I live without much Loving support from my Critical, Judgemental

Family and an Abusive Longtime Boyfriend!!! I am not seeking Pity and Do Not

Want To Come Off As A Helpless Victim!!! I'm Not!!! I Now See Myself As Stronger

In Spirit with some Wisdom at the Prime age of 46!!! I only State the Facts,

Truth and History of being brought up in a Harshly, Critical, Judgemental,

Prideful, Stubborn, Ignorant, Selfish Family!!!!! I Have Been Selected To Be The

Black Sheep, Orphan of My Family!!!!! All others have been much more fortunate

in my family other than my Precious, Beloved, Deceased, Downs Syndrome Sister

and Me!!!! To this Day My So Called Christian Family, Minimizes My Progressive,

Ongoing Neurospinal BD's and Lifelong Chronic Pain Suffering!!!!! They Just Keep

Writing Me Off As

Mentally Unwell Due To All of My Poor Choices In Life and Me Being To Blame For

My Health Conditions!!!! Because I Continue To Have A Serious Anger Control

Problem When I Am Criticized And Unsupported By Much of My Family!!!! They Say

I'm To Blame For My Poor Health And They Don't Want To Hear About It!!!! They

Say My Heart Problem Is All My Fault For Being Out Of Control and

Overemotional!!!!! Incidentally Several Other Family Members Lose It Over Much

Less Legitimate, Minor, Petty Reasons than Lifelong, Ongoing, Progressive,

Incurable Neurological, Spinal BD's, Serious Irreversible Damage, And Possibly

Man Caused Incurable Spinal Meninge Disease!!!!!!! All this Personal Suffering

and Hardship and I still continue to Stay True To My Naturally, Compassionate,

Honest, Caring, Straightforward, Geniune Self!!!! I'm Not Boasting, I'm Just

Truthfully Stating Who I Am And Always Have Been!!!!!! I Truly Care And Try My

Best To Support All Others In Need!!!!!!

Hope Other Members Can Share Any Knowledge Regarding CNS Defects and Damage

Causiing Serious Problems of The Heart, Kidney's, Lungs, etc.!!!! I also

continue to progress with serious Bladder Dysfunction since multiple disc

injuries due to caring for and assisting with multidisabled teens and children

up to 2005, discovery and dx of BD's, Depo Medrol Epidural Steroid Injection,

Etc. since 2004!!!!! Uro finally after increased bladder dysfunction admits I

will have to start cathing myself as Man's Medicine Just Isn't Getting The Job

Done!!!!! Have Been Trying To Get To JHU again for help with Not Much Success

since the End of June This Year!!!!! My Patience Is Quickly Running Out!!! No

Wonder I Can't Get A Hold of This Ongoing Anger!!!!!!! Well I Have Vented And

Gone On More Than Enough Again!!!! Hope All Others Are Living Better Days!!!!

Many Prayers For Chip's Recovery Also!!!!!!

Melana from PA

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