Newbie here..Need advice,am losing my mind and body.

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I am working with a WP doc for the last 11 months. I.Am. A. Mess. AND SICK OF

IT!

I have a long,ugly story to tell, but I cannot think straight at the moment.

Yesterday was

day 28 of the LAST time I will take the WP. I have NO idea how I found this

group-but I did,

and another general site for hysterectomies-and haven't taken ANY hormone since

yesterday AM.

Yes, I am telling my doc. though I can't imagine she will be surprised-and she

will blame

my failure, on not getting me silver fillings out-and detoxing!

Brief history...

I am 3.5 yrs. post-complete hysterectomy/oophorectomy,after losing a 20+ yr

battle with

stage 4 endometriosis. Before my hysterectomy, I was also dxed with

Fibromyalgia. POST

hysterectomy, I was dxed with Hypothyroid,CFIDS,EBV,and a heart murmer. Long

history of

anxiety,insomnia, and panic disorder. A ball of fun.

11 months ago, after much misery of various BHRT, I saw a doc who seemed to know

her

hormones, and I fell for it.

After many blood draws,one check-up, and two phone consults(she's an hour away)

I was

told there wasn't much she could do for me,until my mercury came out, and

meanwhile,

she has told me to tough it out(or the nurses,actually)-the latest,being that I

had a yeast

infection out of nowhere, and HORRIBLE bladder issues-mainly leaking a lot.

There have

been many changes to the WAY I use the WP-but never an adjustment of dosage.

Though

she has adjusted my Armour thyroid-each time telling me it will effect my sex

hormones-

and to give it another two mos to balance out. Balanced? What's that?

I blame myself for much of this-I thought I was well read-but it is painfully

clear to me

now, that if WP works-it's not meant for women who have had such a horrible

medical

history as mine, and an oophorectomy in my late 30's! BUT!!! SHAME ON THIS

DOCTOR!!!!!!

NOW-

What can I do? I am so depressed-I feel so betrayed by sooooooo many docs, and

have no

trust in them.

I read the list of P ovrerdose, and,yes, I do have many of them-though some were

already

there. However!! I am NOT getting better on this protocol. My words

mumble-jumble,I

have gained tons of weight,and am soooo depressed-with thoughts of suicide at

times. My

brain is scary!!!!!!!! No word recall,no memory,total fog. It has taken me a

loonngg time

just to write this.

There is a new compounding pharmacy in my city,and the pharmacist is very nice

an

informed. Do I turn to him? My husband wants me to see someone first thing

tomorrow. I

am scared.

b.