re:question benzo addiction...detox...or plain crazy

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hey everyone!

I have not been on for awhile so first things first...Health, Love,

Laughter for 2009!

Anyway, I like many of you take quite a drug coctail for this @#%$ & *$

illness. Zoloft has been useful for past 9 or so months keeping

anziety and menopausal symptoms. Doctor recently increased oxycodone

from 1x4xday to 2x3xday with a flexeril/bentyl back up because pain

is hard tomanage due to candidas infection exactly 1 year ago on top

of fungal infection, I beleve is systemic because every infectio I

have had has fungal sumthin or another, nose, uti, gut you know the

drill! He also put me on a hypothroidd med like 6weeks or so cuz t3

and t4 levels were a little low. Everyone I know is like ooohh Oxy,

wow thats great...Im like noooo I dont tKE FOR THE HIGH i TAKE IT FOR

THE EXTREME PAIN IM IN...DUH! aNYWAY Something happened new years

eve...I did have like 2 drinks....havent drank much since all this

started 1 1/2 years ago. ButI guess I just snapped...dont remember

much...husband does....violent...out of control etc. So I sleeped

all thru thursday and friday with out waking up I do have sleeping

pills..Temazepan but dont remember taking any and the bottle looks

the same. By sat husband was freaked so bad I wAS woken up by police

officers and my daughter getting me out of a very deep sleep,

haandcuffs anf a trip to local hospital. Husband was ready tooput me

on a 72ghour psyche hold. Even then with out taken any medication,

that I knowof for3 days I was still out of it, luckilly they did not

keep me. They said I had pretty high levels of what dont know.

Also just before earlier in the week I did a 48hour detox and body

cleanse.didnt eat much tues or weds dut to the liguid detox. I haVE

JUST COME OFF ANOTHER CANDIDA INFECTION I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING SINCE

oCT AND HAD JUST ALSO HAD tRCHAMONAS...AGAIN LIKE THE WEEK BEFORE.

so my questions are: Infection in body, Antiinfection rx, body

detox, addiction/withdrawl or JUST BLEW A GAsket responsible??? I

know i HAVE READ several posts on anger and out burst but this one

almost cost me my marriage and honstly I dont remeberr much and

never seen it coming. It literall is an angry violent monster like I

am possed or is it more likely invested with this illness. I know

thAT inthe past when I have done a major detoxing of any kind, I have

the strangest dreams/feelings lkie the fungus knows I am trying to

kill it and its like it fights back...kinda like good vs evil

enternal/mental battle. What a way to start thenew year huh? Any

way ANY IMPUT,RESPNCE, DIGNOSIS...yEH iM craZY TO...ALL PSYCHO... OH

AND SOR ABOUT LOUSING TYPE JOB...NEVER WAS MY FORTE!

t^HANKS gUYS

rENEE