Just figured out I have this

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I have suffered from this since childhood, but never knew it was actually

something real that others suffered from. I never talked about it, just suffered

in silence thinking that I was just odd or that others were annoying and weird.

It actually really affected my relationship with my mom, since she was my only

real trigger person as a child and teenager. I think since I didn't address it

when it was happening, i.e, when she was eating, speaking, drinking, or smoking

cigarettes, I ended up carrying around these feelings of utter disgust and anger

all of the time and just felt she was a terrible person out to annoy and enrage

me.

At one point I did mention to my older brother, " doesn't it annoy you the way

mom drinks? " and he responded yes, but it was not the same. He was sort of

laughing about it, like oh yes, annoying mom!! Whereas I was truly and deeply

bothered.

Now, unfortunately my main trigger person is my daughter. The main one is

sneezing, since she has allergies and sneezes quite often. This is terrible, as

I have found it hard to comfort her, because of feelings of disgust and

sometimes rage. Just the way she sneezes and the sound and frequency of it is

intolerable and puts me into a terrible mood.

I have also discovered an interesting thing-

The sound of clicking shoes really seems to have the opposite effect, it

actually comforts me and almost puts me into a trance state.

Does anyone else experience this?

Another thing is that at certain times of the month my sensitivity is even more

severe. Do hormones play a role?

The most upsetting thing right now for me is that nobody is taking me seriously.

They are not seeing it as a real disorder that I cannot control. They actually

seem to think I am making it up.

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Hi humansrunamuck,Welcome to the forums! You are very welcome here.I think you will find that experiences like yours are very common. I started to develop symptoms of misophonia around the age of 8. At first, my brother was my biggest trigger (his whistling drove me nuts, and he sure knew how to take advantage of that!)As I got older my mother became my biggest trigger (just like you.) My family seemed to think I "disliked them" and was "making things up" as a sort of passive-aggressive way to get back at them.Not knowing what I was suffering from, I was half convinced of this myself.Anyway, I do have a few noises that I like -- but they are mostly white noise or music (as like as I'm the one

choosing to play the music!)Also, my sensitivity varies greatly based on my mood -- so I'm sure hormones do play a role.Not being taken seriously sure is frustrating. In my case, finding out that the condition has a name, and getting an official diagnosis from an audiologist, bothhelped my family to understand what I'm going through, and that my reactions are involuntary. I only got the diagnosis from Dr. J about a month and a half ago,and already I notice my family is more understanding.Chris