For heaven's sake, my own body annoys me

[Guest guest]

Back in high school when I developed Misophonia, the noises my father made

bothered me. Then, when I noticed everyone else made the same noise, and that I

had been blocking it out all this time, it didn't make me say to myself " ok,

everyone else does it a lot more than I though, so now I shouldn't allow my

father's noises to bother me anymore " . Instead (you all know this drill ),

everyone else's noise started bothering me too.

Odd thing is that my own body started bothering me. I have ADHD and would

run around the house alot, even in my later teen years, because I was (still am)

just plane old hyper-active. My brother complained that when I ran and jumped

around, my right ankle would pop like crazy, and that it bothered him(no, he

doesn't have Misophonia); after which point, it started bothering me too. I was

very disheartened when it started bothering me, and I said to myself " no no no,

you can't do this to me life; don't make me in torment even when I'm not around

people, how much worse can this $@%#ing problem get?? " . I would get so mad

every time my ankle would pop that I would slam it up against a wall or

furnature leg or something, which hurt of course, but I kept doing it anyway.

Odd thing is, for long stretches of time I can completely block it out(go

figure). I haven't been bothered by it recently at all, though there are other

things I haven't been able to block out. When my muscles twitch, I hate it with

a passion. It's not so annoying these days, but along time ago I got so mad

once, I actually stabbed myself in my calf muscle. When my left ear pops, that

also makes me foam at the mouth. I've slammed my hand against my ear multiple

times, and if I did it hard enough my ear canal would swell up, and become

infected. This has happened on more than one occation, and though I can still

hear perfectly well out of my left ear (), something about it has permanently

changed; don't know what exacly, but if I dive under water very deep, my right

ear will hurt under the pressure, but my left ear won't. Also, if I smack

myself in the ear these days, it takes much more pressure to damage it. Maybe

an audiologist could tell me what's up?

[Guest guest]

Hi Jarred, I really can understand what you're saying about your own sounds

beginning to bother you. I don't have it like you do, though. One of the sounds

that bother me are lips smacking and the crackling sound mouths make when they

are dry. I have developed Sjogren's Syndrome and Hoshimotos Thyroiditis and I

have dry mouth a lot. And... well... guess what? I sometimes make those sounds.

It puts me immediately at a high agitation level, but then I drink, replace the

sounds with something else as fast as I can. Even a good shout will help

sometimes. I carry a spray for my mouth and drink constantly in order to keep

from making those sounds. I also talk a lot less than I used to. Most of the

time I'm not bothered by my own sounds, but that one... oh boy... that one puts

me over the edge.

I wonder if anyone in the group has any ideas how to deal with this problem

better.

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> Back in high school when I developed Misophonia, the noises my father

made bothered me. Then, when I noticed everyone else made the same noise, and

that I had been blocking it out all this time, it didn't make me say to myself

" ok, everyone else does it a lot more than I though, so now I shouldn't allow my

father's noises to bother me anymore " . Instead (you all know this drill ),

everyone else's noise started bothering me too.

> Odd thing is that my own body started bothering me. I have ADHD and

would run around the house alot, even in my later teen years, because I was

(still am) just plane old hyper-active. My brother complained that when I ran

and jumped around, my right ankle would pop like crazy, and that it bothered

him(no, he doesn't have Misophonia); after which point, it started bothering me

too. I was very disheartened when it started bothering me, and I said to myself

" no no no, you can't do this to me life; don't make me in torment even when I'm

not around people, how much worse can this $@%#ing problem get?? " . I would get

so mad every time my ankle would pop that I would slam it up against a wall or

furnature leg or something, which hurt of course, but I kept doing it anyway.

Odd thing is, for long stretches of time I can completely block it out(go

figure). I haven't been bothered by it recently at all, though there are other

things I haven't been able to block out. When my muscles twitch, I hate it with

a passion. It's not so annoying these days, but along time ago I got so mad

once, I actually stabbed myself in my calf muscle. When my left ear pops, that

also makes me foam at the mouth. I've slammed my hand against my ear multiple

times, and if I did it hard enough my ear canal would swell up, and become

infected. This has happened on more than one occation, and though I can still

hear perfectly well out of my left ear (), something about it has permanently

changed; don't know what exacly, but if I dive under water very deep, my right

ear will hurt under the pressure, but my left ear won't. Also, if I smack

myself in the ear these days, it takes much more pressure to damage it. Maybe

an audiologist could tell me what's up?

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Jarred

I think many of your problems come from your Eustachian tubes. When people

dive, they should make sure they equalise the pressure in their middle ears and

the water by blowing into their ears (Valsalva). If you tried this and failed to

do so, hence the pain, that means the right E tube is partly blocked or hard to

open. The left ear would seem to have the opposite problem, as it is likely to

spring open with a pop when you move around. You may have a Patulous E Tube, in

which case you may hear your own voice booming in your left ear, your own

breathing movements, and external sounds can be unpleasantly loud. The usual

cause for this is weight loss, dehydration, or previous ear infections or

grommets.

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> > Back in high school when I developed Misophonia, the noises my father

made bothered me. Then, when I noticed everyone else made the same noise, and

that I had been blocking it out all this time, it didn't make me say to myself

" ok, everyone else does it a lot more than I though, so now I shouldn't allow my

father's noises to bother me anymore " . Instead (you all know this drill ),

everyone else's noise started bothering me too.

> > Odd thing is that my own body started bothering me. I have ADHD and

would run around the house alot, even in my later teen years, because I was

(still am) just plane old hyper-active. My brother complained that when I ran

and jumped around, my right ankle would pop like crazy, and that it bothered

him(no, he doesn't have Misophonia); after which point, it started bothering me

too. I was very disheartened when it started bothering me, and I said to myself

" no no no, you can't do this to me life; don't make me in torment even when I'm

not around people, how much worse can this $@%#ing problem get?? " . I would get

so mad every time my ankle would pop that I would slam it up against a wall or

furnature leg or something, which hurt of course, but I kept doing it anyway.

Odd thing is, for long stretches of time I can completely block it out(go

figure). I haven't been bothered by it recently at all, though there are other

things I haven't been able to block out. When my muscles twitch, I hate it with

a passion. It's not so annoying these days, but along time ago I got so mad

once, I actually stabbed myself in my calf muscle. When my left ear pops, that

also makes me foam at the mouth. I've slammed my hand against my ear multiple

times, and if I did it hard enough my ear canal would swell up, and become

infected. This has happened on more than one occation, and though I can still

hear perfectly well out of my left ear (), something about it has permanently

changed; don't know what exacly, but if I dive under water very deep, my right

ear will hurt under the pressure, but my left ear won't. Also, if I smack

myself in the ear these days, it takes much more pressure to damage it. Maybe

an audiologist could tell me what's up?

> >

>

[Guest guest]

" Hi Jarred

I think many of your problems come from your Eustachian tubes. When people

dive, they should make sure they equalise the pressure in their middle ears and

the water by blowing into their ears (Valsalva). If you tried this and failed to

do so, hence the pain, that means the right E tube is partly blocked or hard to

open. The left ear would seem to have the opposite problem, as it is likely to

spring open with a pop when you move around. You may have a Patulous E Tube, in

which case you may hear your own voice booming in your left ear, your own

breathing movements, and external sounds can be unpleasantly loud. The usual

cause for this is weight loss, dehydration, or previous ear infections or

grommets. " -anthony g

I looked into the patuleous e tube thing a little, and I don't particularly here

better out of either ear, though when I breath in and out, I do actually hear it

a little better in my left than in my right, though I had never noticed that

before; it's only slightly better (not because I was focusing on it, I thought

of that). I can hear my heart beat, though only because I an always (literally

always) wearing earbuds with as much of an air seal as possible. Without my

earbuds, I've only ever heard external sounds. By the way, I only hear my ankle

popping because its really just louder than any other bone popping in my body;

with my earbuds in, I mostly just feel it, though I hear it a little (in both

ears, I can't seem to tell a difference). Also, my left ear does pop alot, but

mostly when I an chewing, swallowing, or talking. Alot more so when I'm

upset(figure it's from blood rushing to the ear, aggravating the popping).

[Guest guest]

As far as I have been able to check on the internet, which is not very

definitive, hearing onself breathing or one's own heartbeat is not normal,

though not necessarily indicating anything serious going on.

Unless there is some obvious lung or respiratory problem, I think Patent E

Tubes are the only cause of hearing your own breathing movements, and this can

get very annoying!

Hearing your heartbeat is either subjective or objective tinnitus, either

generated in a misfunctioning inner ear, or resulting from actual sounds of

blood not flowing smoothly through nearby large blood vessels.

If you have not got some muscle or joint problem, and no-one else but you

can hear your ankle popping, I suggest you check out Superior Semicircular Canal

Syndrome, where for example a tuning fork on the ankle can be heard.

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> " Hi Jarred

> I think many of your problems come from your Eustachian tubes. When people

dive, they should make sure they equalise the pressure in their middle ears and

the water by blowing into their ears (Valsalva). If you tried this and failed to

do so, hence the pain, that means the right E tube is partly blocked or hard to

open. The left ear would seem to have the opposite problem, as it is likely to

spring open with a pop when you move around. You may have a Patulous E Tube, in

which case you may hear your own voice booming in your left ear, your own

breathing movements, and external sounds can be unpleasantly loud. The usual

cause for this is weight loss, dehydration, or previous ear infections or

grommets. " -anthony g

>

> I looked into the patuleous e tube thing a little, and I don't particularly

here better out of either ear, though when I breath in and out, I do actually

hear it a little better in my left than in my right, though I had never noticed

that before; it's only slightly better (not because I was focusing on it, I

thought of that). I can hear my heart beat, though only because I an always

(literally always) wearing earbuds with as much of an air seal as possible.

Without my earbuds, I've only ever heard external sounds. By the way, I only

hear my ankle popping because its really just louder than any other bone popping

in my body; with my earbuds in, I mostly just feel it, though I hear it a little

(in both ears, I can't seem to tell a difference). Also, my left ear does pop

alot, but mostly when I an chewing, swallowing, or talking. Alot more so when

I'm upset(figure it's from blood rushing to the ear, aggravating the popping).

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