Hello! Here is my intro and story :)

[Guest guest]

Hello! I thought I would post to say who I am and how this is for me, as an

introduction.

Misophonia: It makes me hate people. Where someone would just see someone eating

a sandwich, I see someone sitting there doe eyed and slack jawed.. Mushing the

disgusting sandwich between their piggish jowls and slobbering all over the

place.

If anyone around me eats with an opened mouth, I find it offensive. As if they

are doing it just to piss me off.

" The response has been described as a reflexive emotional flood of rage and

panic with a storm of fight-or-flight reactions becoming paramount. Adrenaline

flooding, face flushing, heart-pounding and/or shaking and the need to

physically flee or attack are often experienced. "

That is what happens exactly. I hear the sound and *instantly* my blood starts

to boil. I immediately feel enraged and my fight-or-flight needle bounces

straight up to " FIGHT!!!! " I never -do- fight, but I feel an extreme *urge* to.

A physical urge. A few of my triggers are:

MOUTH & EATING:

chewing, talking with food in mouth, silverware scraping teeth, Gulping,

slurping, tooth sucking,

wet mouth sounds, kissing sounds, spitting.

BREATHING/NASAL:

Loud breathing, snoring, nose whistling, hawking phlemn, coughing,

VOCAL:

humming, overused words such as um or ah, muffled talking, tv laugh tracks.

BODY MOVEMENT RELATED:

Foot shuffling (dry feet on floor),

Utensils: silverware hitting plates, crinkling food packages.

VISUAL (Sound Related:) eating, chewing gum, chewing with mouth open, fingers in

mouth.

VISUAL(NOT necessarily SOUND RELATED)

Repetitive foot or body movements, hands near mouth, fidgeting.

ENVIROMENTAL

Other People's muffled / bass music or TV through walls, electronic humming,

crickets, frogs, rattling.

It is at a point that I rarely leave my house, and it is making it difficult to

not be constantly yelling at my kids.

I have a 5 year old step son and he has the absolute worst table manners I have

ever seen. It is not his fault, his mom has none either and his dad (my husband)

gives me a dirty look whenever I say " Please close your mouth when you chew. " It

is really hard to stay calm, cool and collected when he is the worst offender. I

love this kid intensely, and it is incredibly distressing that he is my worst

trigger.

Second in line is my own two year old son. He is in the terrible two's stage. He

cries, whines, hits people and screeches at a pitch that should shatter glass.

He is much louder when we have my step son here, and that is when it is at it's

worst.

I keep seeing that the difference between 4s and hyperacusis is loud sound

versus soft sound. The problem with me is that BOTH cause the instant rage. I

can't help the feelings at all, and until I found this group I seriously thought

I was losing it. I thought it was some sort of crazy hormonal imbalance from

having two babies so close together and maybe it was something that happened

when I got my tubes tied.

I found the misophonia.info site and everything clicked into place like a

Rubik's Cube.

I tried valerian root for about a week in pretty high doses and it helped for

the first day. I have tried xanax in the past and it worked like a charm, but

left me out of my head and high all day. I don't want to be high all day and I

don't want to constantly feel rage towards my kids. I love my kids dearly, and I

need this to stop.

Le sigh.

[Guest guest]

I wish I could give you some grand new advice that would make it go away. I sure

know what you are talking about.

I have become quite a hermit. It just isn't worth it to me anymore to have to

deal with people and their noises. I dislike becoming irrational in my responses

to them about as much as I dislike their noises.

>

> Hello! I thought I would post to say who I am and how this is for me, as an

introduction.

>

> Misophonia: It makes me hate people. Where someone would just see someone

eating a sandwich, I see someone sitting there doe eyed and slack jawed..

Mushing the disgusting sandwich between their piggish jowls and slobbering all

over the place.

> If anyone around me eats with an opened mouth, I find it offensive. As if they

are doing it just to piss me off.

>

> " The response has been described as a reflexive emotional flood of rage and

panic with a storm of fight-or-flight reactions becoming paramount. Adrenaline

flooding, face flushing, heart-pounding and/or shaking and the need to

physically flee or attack are often experienced. "

> That is what happens exactly. I hear the sound and *instantly* my blood starts

to boil. I immediately feel enraged and my fight-or-flight needle bounces

straight up to " FIGHT!!!! " I never -do- fight, but I feel an extreme *urge* to.

> A physical urge. A few of my triggers are:

>

> MOUTH & EATING:

> chewing, talking with food in mouth, silverware scraping teeth, Gulping,

slurping, tooth sucking,

> wet mouth sounds, kissing sounds, spitting.

>

> BREATHING/NASAL:

> Loud breathing, snoring, nose whistling, hawking phlemn, coughing,

>

> VOCAL:

> humming, overused words such as um or ah, muffled talking, tv laugh tracks.

>

> BODY MOVEMENT RELATED:

> Foot shuffling (dry feet on floor),

>

> Utensils: silverware hitting plates, crinkling food packages.

>

> VISUAL (Sound Related:) eating, chewing gum, chewing with mouth open, fingers

in mouth.

>

> VISUAL(NOT necessarily SOUND RELATED)

> Repetitive foot or body movements, hands near mouth, fidgeting.

>

> ENVIROMENTAL

> Other People's muffled / bass music or TV through walls, electronic humming,

crickets, frogs, rattling.

>

> It is at a point that I rarely leave my house, and it is making it difficult

to not be constantly yelling at my kids.

>

> I have a 5 year old step son and he has the absolute worst table manners I

have ever seen. It is not his fault, his mom has none either and his dad (my

husband) gives me a dirty look whenever I say " Please close your mouth when you

chew. " It is really hard to stay calm, cool and collected when he is the worst

offender. I love this kid intensely, and it is incredibly distressing that he is

my worst trigger.

>

> Second in line is my own two year old son. He is in the terrible two's stage.

He cries, whines, hits people and screeches at a pitch that should shatter

glass. He is much louder when we have my step son here, and that is when it is

at it's worst.

>

> I keep seeing that the difference between 4s and hyperacusis is loud sound

versus soft sound. The problem with me is that BOTH cause the instant rage. I

can't help the feelings at all, and until I found this group I seriously thought

I was losing it. I thought it was some sort of crazy hormonal imbalance from

having two babies so close together and maybe it was something that happened

when I got my tubes tied.

>

> I found the misophonia.info site and everything clicked into place like a

Rubik's Cube.

>

> I tried valerian root for about a week in pretty high doses and it helped for

the first day. I have tried xanax in the past and it worked like a charm, but

left me out of my head and high all day. I don't want to be high all day and I

don't want to constantly feel rage towards my kids. I love my kids dearly, and I

need this to stop.

>

> Le sigh.

>