Guest guest Posted May 19, 2012 Report Share Posted May 19, 2012 I used to be very suicidal over this. Then I would think if I put out my ears I would be ok and still be alive. It is a very normal reaction under the circumstances. Funny , but it was music and the thought that I would not be able to hear my grandkids that stopped me. Sorry you feel so desperate and hopeless. We may be closer now then ever to finding a cure or at least relief. Please hang in there April and don't ever do anything drastic and irreparable. Better to just live with earplugs and white noise for now. I think that the visuals could get worse and your anger over having to give up your hearing would only exacerbate the problem. This is as desperate an email as I have read on this site. Find a good counselor where you live. And don't give up the fight. Mike To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Saturday, May 19, 2012 8:45 PM Subject: Ear Surgery I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone? I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2012 Report Share Posted May 19, 2012 Can I ask what your age is April? What do you do to cope with this when things get bad ?Sent from my iPad I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone? I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore. age = Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2012 Report Share Posted May 19, 2012 >I feel the same way....BUT...visual affects me as well...so I don't think I would benefit much when I know I would be looking around constantly to see what could/would be pissing me off at that moment. Besides I would miss telling my 10 year old twin daughters to stop singing all the time..... there are good things about hearing too!!! Don't ever forget that! I used to be very suicidal over this. Then I would think if I put out my > ears I would be ok and still be alive. It is a very normal reaction under > the circumstances. Funny , but it was music and the thought that I would > not be able to hear my grandkids that stopped me. > Sorry you feel so desperate and hopeless. We may be closer now then ever > to finding a cure or at least relief. Please hang in there April and don't > ever do anything drastic and irreparable. Better to just live with > earplugs and white noise for now. > I think that the visuals could get worse and your anger over having to > give up your hearing would only exacerbate the problem. > This is as desperate an email as I have read on this site. > Find a good counselor where you live. > And don't give up the fight. > > Mike >  >  > > > ________________________________ > > To: Soundsensitivity > Sent: Saturday, May 19, 2012 8:45 PM > Subject: Ear Surgery > > >  > I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact > anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want > to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time > now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my > phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity > regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch > yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well > such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have > to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I > freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will > simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone? > > I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2012 Report Share Posted May 20, 2012 Please dom't consider it. I'm 69 and have severe hearing loss. It doesn't help. My visual triggers have increased and I'm more sensitive than ever. Plus smell. I can smell a piece of gum from a mile away and the odor make me want to find that person, even if I can't see them, and cut out their jaw. Additionally, the sense of social isolation is tremendous. Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2012 Report Share Posted May 20, 2012 I agree with Betty. Please don't make things worse for yourself April. I know it's bad but this could make it worse and you'd be deaf.Heidi Please dom't consider it. I'm 69 and have severe hearing loss. It doesn't help. My visual triggers have increased and I'm more sensitive than ever. Plus smell. I can smell a piece of gum from a mile away and the odor make me want to find that person, even if I can't see them, and cut out their jaw. Additionally, the sense of social isolation is tremendous. Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2012 Report Share Posted May 20, 2012 Hi . I am 33 years old. Until 5 years ago I used drugs to cope. I found xanax really helped but the drugs made it impossible to function normally. They stupified me and I was constantly higher than I needed to be. I am in my 4th year of college so drugs are simply not an option. Avoidant behavior is another coping skill I use frequently but I can only miss 3 days per class. When I was younger I lived in my room as I do now most of the time. If I can I will avoid at all costs. My social life is coming together quite wonderfully if I would only allow it. I feel the surgery will give an "out" and let me socialize without the constant anxiety (and I mean ANXIETY) about certain sounds. To: "Soundsensitivity " <Soundsensitivity > Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 12:52 AM Subject: Re: Ear Surgery Can I ask what your age is April? What do you do to cope with this when things get bad ?Sent from my iPad I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone? I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore. age = Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2012 Report Share Posted May 20, 2012 Ahh. You are exactly the person I needed to hear from. I was afraid that's what would happen. To: "Soundsensitivity " <Soundsensitivity > Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 3:17 AM Subject: Re: Ear Surgery Please dom't consider it. I'm 69 and have severe hearing loss. It doesn't help. My visual triggers have increased and I'm more sensitive than ever. Plus smell. I can smell a piece of gum from a mile away and the odor make me want to find that person, even if I can't see them, and cut out their jaw. Additionally, the sense of social isolation is tremendous. Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2012 Report Share Posted May 20, 2012 Please do not do this. We don't know what is causing this to begin with and you could be opening yourself up to far worse things. A lot of us also have visual triggers and you mentioned that you do as well. Even if you cannot hear, you will still have those problems and I believe they would get worse. Besides, you said you have a love for music. Try to imagine NEVER hearing music again. Something like this cannot be undone.... don't go through with it. We are entering a time of change for us all. Up until now we've not had any exposure so doctors are now going to have to progress. We will find a cure. > > I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone? > > I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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