Motercycles, Dirtbikes, ATVs, Engine Revving and Lawnmowers

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Are these thing triggers for anyone else? My neighbor's kid is constantly on a

dirtbike or a 4-wheeler. It feels like the noise is actually in my body when he

does this. In fact, ear plugs do not drown out the sound because I feel the

vibration in my body. I know its wrong but many times during the trugger

episode, in my rage I secretly wish him to wreck the damn thing. I DO realize

this is wrong and I would never do anything to cause him to wreck but my

thoughts scare me sometimes. During the trigger I imagine a big rock in his path

or an invisible clothes-line. I feel so guilty about these thoughts but the

sound drives me to this brink. I have told the neighbors MANY times to ask him

to stop it, but I doubt they understand how this affects me. Furthermore, this

kid really isnt doing anything wrong. He's just being a kid and enjoying his

life and his god forsaken dirtbike. My aversion to the noise he is making leads

me to resent him, to secretly hate this sweet little boy and I am not as nice to

him as I once was. But back to the noise he makes, it's really IS ruining my

quality of life. Seriously.