Relieved to have found this group & I am not alone!

May 10, 2012

I think Monday was my " WTH " point.

A woman in the office next to me was using packaging tape and all I could hear

was the ripping sound of the tape. I tried to turn my music up. Didn't help. I

opened a window thinking the sound of constant traffic & music would help. Nope.

I turned on a fan on top of it all. I still couldn't help but hear it. I

slammed my phone down & cracked the earpiece. Then I knew I had a problem.

All my life certain sounds would go beyond annoy me, they angered me. I think

it started when I was a little girl eating at the table with my parents. My

father was 17 years older than my mom & had already lost his teeth. He had false

teeth, but REFUSED to wear them when eating. The sounds that he made, the

slurping, the grinding, the etc. etc. etc - oh my gosh I wanted to ring his

neck. My mom would slowly start to annoy me with her constant sniffing & her

runny nose. What the heck??

As I grew older, I lived my life listening to music with headphones. I ate in

my room alone when possible. I figured as soon as I was old enough to move out,

I would be fine. I wish.

I am now 34 years old and STILL these same sounds bother me. What is even more

bizaare is sometimes I could be out at a restaurant (where I am normally OK) but

then there are times where I hear everyone around me - and I mean everyone. I

could go crazy!

My husband thought I was crazy & just easily annoyed & would always tell me to

chill out. I wish I could - do you think I " LIKE " getting angry over everyday

noises???? I can't help it. I really wish I could.

If there was a magic pill I could take I would just to stop this craziness. I

have high blood pressure now so getting so easily upset is even worse for me

now.

Even as I started to type this my husband started coughing because he choked on

his water & after 4-5 coughs, I yelled at him. I even recognize how ridiculous

it is - yet I can't stop.

I am (I don't know if I want to say glad) but I am glad I found you all - just

like me in so many ways. It's nice to know I am not alone.

I just hope that we can all find ways to cope.

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