Re: [Spam 6.76] Ear Surgery

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Hello April,I had to write you even if I am new to this group, what you are saying in your email frightens me, thinking you would mutilate yourself. You said vibrations got to you also, then sugary would not help. I have

anger issues when I hear certain sounds, but not to the degree of hurting myself. I do want to punch someone who is scraping their silverware on a plate, but restrain myself from this childish behavior. It takes everything in me not yell and scream at people who makes these sounds that drive me over.

Please before you do anything so drastic I would seek out some professional help. It seems to me what I have been reading here that more help with our hearing problem might not be to far off. At least there is a group of people who understanding and are supportive.Subject: [spam 6.76] Ear SurgeryTo: Soundsensitivity Date: Saturday, May 19, 2012, 8:45 PM

I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone?

I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore.

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Hi . Thank you for your response. Im sorry to have frightened you with my possible plan to have surgery. It is difficult to hear you say that I am mutilating myself as I dont see it that way. Well, if I jabbed an icepick through my ear I can see how that would be mutilation. But I am speaking of a surgery to correct a severe and painful condition. To defend my position I can compare it to a surgery that removes a painful tumor. If the painful tumor were connected to my eardrum I dont think anyone would object to having it removed even if it costed me my hearing. Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation. Im not talking about "hurting myself" either. This is not an idea that came to me during a moment of rage. I have

thought about it for years now in moments of complete clarity. I understand that my idea is rather extreme, but I do not think it an irrational decision if I choose to preserve my sanity and quality of life. It is something I would gladly trade my hearing for and I believe my thinking is perfectly rational. My quality of life is in utter decline because of the acousticophobia. So you see, I am not at all defeated at the thought of not hearing, I am elated in fact. I simply do not want to have the surgery if my phobias will spread to other senses. I am looking for somebody who has gone this route and can tell me their experience. If removing the hearing is the cure I will gladly take it, but I just do not want to have given up my hearing only to have to symptoms rebound in a different form. This is why I am asking these questions. To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 3:04 PM Subject: Re: [spam 6.76] Ear Surgery

Hello April,I had to write you even if I am new to this group, what you are saying in your email frightens me, thinking you would mutilate yourself. You said vibrations got to you also, then sugary would not help. I have

anger issues when I hear certain sounds, but not to the degree of hurting myself. I do want to punch someone who is scraping their silverware on a plate, but restrain myself from this childish behavior. It takes everything in me not yell and scream at people who makes these sounds that drive me over.

Please before you do anything so drastic I would seek out some professional help. It seems to me what I have been reading here that more help with our hearing problem might not be to far off. At least there is a group of people who understanding and are supportive.Subject: [spam 6.76] Ear SurgeryTo: Soundsensitivity Date: Saturday, May 19, 2012, 8:45 PM

I want to have my auditory nerves severed. I dont know the exact anatomical termination for what I want done. All I know is I do not want to hear anything ever again. Ive been thinking about this for a long time now. The only thing stopping me is my love for music. I am worried that my phobia might transfer to another area. I already have tactile sensitivity regarding gritty substances like comet clenser or dirt and I cannot touch yarn or cotten-balls anymore. I also have certain visual aversions as well such as seeing people spit or seeing somebody chew gum. I dont even have to hear the gum anymore, if I see a mouth moving up and down repeatedly I freak out. What are your thoughts on this? Do you think my misophobia will simply transfer onto other things once my hearing is gone?

I know this sounds extreme and insane but I dont even care anymore.

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I did not judge you personally. I do not even know you. I was basically told I was self mutilating and that ticked me off. I said nothing to you directly and I apologise if you took offense. Report me to the mod or do whatever you feel like doing but I have plenty of other stresses without having to worry about your personal issues with self harm. This is not what the group is about so I wasnt aware I had to walk on eggshells concerning everything listed in the DSM. To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 6:32 PM Subject: Re: [spam 6.76] Ear Surgery

"Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation"

I hope you know that comments like that are equally (if not more) offensive. As someone who struggled for many years with self injury, comments that refer to someone like me as a PSYCHO is beyond offensive and simply NOT true. People find all kinds of ways to cope--and while they may not all be healthy and you may not understand them, it doesn't give you the right to judge them so harshly. For the record, I don't think anyone should judge YOU harshly for what you want to do either, even though I personally don't agree with your decision.

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Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation

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And this could have been addressed privately. I cannot appreciate being called out and pubically shamed like some little school child. I thought this was a supportive environment but I havent even been here 24 hours and already Ive been single out and embarrassed for all to see. Thanks for the extra bs. Good luck everybody. This is my last post. To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 6:32 PM Subject: Re: [spam 6.76] Ear Surgery

"Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation"

I hope you know that comments like that are equally (if not more) offensive. As someone who struggled for many years with self injury, comments that refer to someone like me as a PSYCHO is beyond offensive and simply NOT true. People find all kinds of ways to cope--and while they may not all be healthy and you may not understand them, it doesn't give you the right to judge them so harshly. For the record, I don't think anyone should judge YOU harshly for what you want to do either, even though I personally don't agree with your decision.

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"Hope is more than a word; it's a state of being. It's a firm belief God will come through. Life brings rain... hope turns every drop into the power to bloom like never before." -Holley Gerth ♥

Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation

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April, dont leave. We are all here to help each other. We all handle our symptoms differently and NO ONE on here should be judging another person just helping them. And the more they are hurting the more the rest of us should be supportive and helping. So don't take what ONE person says as speaking for the rest of us. And let us all help each other. There are some people on here that have been suicidal. Just because I'm not, would I be justified in condemning them for being suicidal? If I did Id be the biggest jerk in the world and probably the cruelest. Let me restate the rules of this forum for Dr. . We are to be respectful of each other no matter what. If you want to help, you dont do it by insulting

another person who is looking for help. Choose your words carefully you never know when something you say might be said in the wrong way or taken wrong. I urge everyone on here to be very considerate of each others feelings. We share Misophonia in common, but some of us have other symptoms as well while others dont. And we dont necessarily share those symptoms with each other. And while one may have considering suicide, others have self mutilated, others have become violent. Its all different reactions to the same problem - the one we all share -Misophonia To: "Soundsensitivity " <Soundsensitivity > Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 10:22 PM Subject: Re: [spam 6.76] Ear Surgery

And this could have been addressed privately. I cannot appreciate being called out and pubically shamed like some little school child. I thought this was a supportive environment but I havent even been here 24 hours and already Ive been single out and embarrassed for all to see. Thanks for the extra bs. Good luck everybody. This is my last post. To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Sunday, May 20, 2012 6:32 PM Subject: Re: [spam 6.76] Ear Surgery

"Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation"

I hope you know that comments like that are equally (if not more) offensive. As someone who struggled for many years with self injury, comments that refer to someone like me as a PSYCHO is beyond offensive and simply NOT true. People find all kinds of ways to cope--and while they may not all be healthy and you may not understand them, it doesn't give you the right to judge them so harshly. For the record, I don't think anyone should judge YOU harshly for what you want to do either, even though I personally don't agree with your decision.

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♥

"Hope is more than a word; it's a state of being. It's a firm belief God will come through. Life brings rain... hope turns every drop into the power to bloom like never before." -Holley Gerth ♥

Mutilating one's self is something a psycho would do, and although I am not exactly normal I do not engage in self mutilation