A poem about what I did latley

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I Need To Be Happy

 

I ‘v been constantly burning incense

Just because I thought it keep me calm

Happy and tranquil

Then one night when I woke up at 3

I was thinking a bad though that I can’t explain

And I bit my hand and screamed really loud

 

I kept on biting and screaming

And my dad kept yelling at me

I woke up my mom

And I might have woken up the neighbors

The incense made me worse

 

I took three valium

And had coffee with a lot of ’s

But I still kept biting

My mom wouldn’t want to take me anywhere

Because I was acting unpleasant

And not fun to be around

 

Later on, I had a couple of hot buttered bourbons

Watching the last episode of One Life to Live

To pay tribute to the end of the soap

The next day, while watching the Niners playoffs

I got very drunk, threw up and fell asleep

Before the game was over

When I woke up, I could hardly walk

I thought that getting drunk would make me happy

That it would help me to stop biting my hand

But I learned that it doesn’t

 

I want to be happy

I need to be happy

I need to try to be happy

So I can be a pleasant and fun person

For people to be around

I need to find a way

To stop thinking those bad thoughts

And to start thinking good thoughts

I feel like I’m an unpleasant person

And that no one will like me

And want to be around me

 

Reply and tell me what you think. Somehow, I don't feel good about myself

latley.