A poem about making the same mistake over and over again

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Making The Same Mistake Again

 

Like an alcoholic that stops drinking

And starts drinking again

And like a drug addict and stop using

And starts using again

I just keep doing the same behavior again

 

One night at three

I was lying in bed

Thinking bad thoughts

I woke mom and dad up

And dad kept yelling at me

 

I felt bad about what I have done

I should have looked at my good thoughts board

I should have took two valium

Just when I felt like I wanted to scream

 

Dad really needs his rest for work

I made him tired all day

If Dad doesn’t get his rest to go to work

He would go to work tired

And he would hurt himself and die

I could have let him get himself hurt

I could have let him get killed

He could have died

And it would have been my fault

 

I feel like I want to kill myself

For all of this

For being so selfish

And not thinking about anyone else

But myself and my own feelings