WE DID IT!!! and I ate dinner together!!!

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We did it!!!!!!! and I ate dinner together in a restaurant today. We ate

together!!!! SHE DID IT, SHE DID IT!!!! She has had so many improvements just

within the last 2 weeks. Each day is a new improvement. It's hard to believe

even with my own eyes, seeing it, and sharing it with her. Just this week, we

went to 2 museums together, watched TV together, and talked for hours and hours.

All this happened just today:

Today we got up early and went to church for the first time since I don't know

when. (years with the exception of her confirmation last year) It was a big

milestone. It was her idea, it was something she wanted to do with the family.

We were able to sit in church together. We got there and there was a priest

visiting from another country. He said, one thing on his bucket list, was to

learn sign language. It is something and I wanted to do so we wouldn't

have to do charades. It is still on our list to do. So he precedes to sing a

song in sign language wearing white gloves so we could see it. It was done to

music to a song titled, I believe in you. It was the most beautiful thing I

have ever seen, and heard, and I felt like it was done for us. We haven't been

to church in years together besides her making her confirmation. The one mass

we decided to go to, is the one with sign language, something, we often discuss.

I couldn't help it, I cried like a baby. I have been so strong (and numb) thru

all of 's hospitalizations, attempts, rages, etc. and I had to stay strong

while she was suffering. Now the flood gates have opened and I'm thrilled at

all her successes. It's so emotional for me. But then came communion time and I

thought, " oh no, what do I do? " It's funny because I didn't know if I could go

up for communion since that is, indeed, eating, but I did go and she gave me a

look but she was okay.

After church, we went out to an aquarium and she faced another fear, she

actually touched a real shark. She is deathly afraid of sharks. After that,

we walked around an arts festival then went out for dinner. Yes, we went out for

dinner. We ate together. I couldn't believe it. She was great. She used my

husbands head phones for a little bit and she asked me to sit next to her so she

didn't have to face me chewing. As if that was not enough of an improvement, we

then went to a movie together. ALL things she wasn't able to do with me for

years, she did in one day. These were all goals and dreams we wanted to do

together and most of them happened in just one day. I am overcome with joy. I

really can't believe it. I really can't.

Another proud moment was, last Friday; goes to NFB every Friday. My

older daughter invited friends and cousins over for the day to go swimming and

hang out. was home having a blast with her cousins but still left to go

to NFB. That is unbelievable.... for her to leave a good time to go to NFB. I

was so proud of her. She did it and was great when she came home. Then later

that night, we were able to watch a movie together. God I hope I don't wake up

tomorrow and this is all just a dream.

So much more, but I'm going to sleep. Talk with you all tomorrow.

P.S. Dr. J., tried meditation but it did not help her at all. She also

tried EMDR and that didn't help her either, it made her worse. This is not to

say EMDR won't help other people. Everyone has to try and see what works for

themselves.