Happy New Year!

[Guest guest]

Happy New Year to all,

I spent N.Y. Eve with my daughter at her condo. She seems improved. Not that she

has put on weight yet because a migraine had her throwing up all day Thursday.

By Friday she felt better and I took her and her fiance out for a buffet. She

did great eating. Then when I went there yesterday, she made appetizers and sat

and ate and ate. She was going to make pizza, had the dough store bought, and

she was enjoying eating and kept getting down on herself and appologizing that

the pizza was not done yet and it was 9 p.m. Myself and her fiance kept telling

her it's ok, enjoy yourself. She did get the pizza made and we ate around 10:30.

That was allright, but she burned herself in a scurry and kept thinking of how

it made us feel. She wants everything to be perfect. Had to clean the house

first etc. And not for us but if it isn't clean she feels uncomfortable using

it. This just eats away at her already stressed out little body of barely 100

lbs. I didn't get too sad as I do. I started to tear and get anxiety when I

left, but I decided ok if I want to cry and make my illness worse than I'll wait

until I get home. At least I put off what wasn't as bad later. I wanted to get

through the traffice of N.Y. Eve so I left about 20 minutes before midnight and

had to concentrate extra hard on the road to be safe. It's getting harder to see

at night because the steroidss have changed my vision and eye Doc says I have

the beginning stages of cataracs. So that's my story and I'm going to take 2012

with a battle and challege that I don't plan to loose. If I stay out of the

luxury of pouting and depression pretty much, than it will stay away from me, I

hope.

Remember to keep hopeful, sending thoughts of joy your way,