Feeling isolated

[Guest guest]

This is my first post. Hi everyone.

I've been suffering from this condition since High School. I remember always

eating next to a friend, and I would always hit his arm, and tell him to stop.

it's only ever gotten worse.

Last week I was in a class and two people were chewing gum behind me.. even when

I plugged my ears I could still hear one of them gnawing on that flavorless wad

of nastiness. My Fight or Flight activated and I ended up running (RUNNING) out

of the room, interrupting the class saying " I'm DONE, OH I am completely DONE "

and I cried in the bathroom for the next 15 minutes.

As for my family... they understand that I have " a problem " but they don't

understand why or what (and neither do I for that matter) If I am around them

for dinner I just eat as fast as possible and get out of the room.

I can't even LOOK at people eating, especially if they move their mouths a lot

while eating. Big chewers I guess. My sister is one of them and the way her

face distorts to and fro as she's gnawing down whatever saliva, germ covered

montrosity is in her mouth just puts this intense wave of anxiety over me. Like

if this continues on the way it is right now for any longer I might explode.

I feel like a freak. Like a total weirdo because of this. Nobody around me

really understands, they say that I just have to deal with it and get over it

which to some degree I completely agree with, but I've tried and tried and tried

but to no success. I can't force myself to stop sweating, to stop shaking, to

stop crying when this sort of thing happens. I feel alone, I feel caged by my

own brain.

[Guest guest]

Welcome Joy ! ! you have found a safe

place to be. You are not a freak, you are not a weirdo----this is very

real. congrats for logging on and joining the discussion....BIG step towards

learning how to cope,how to advocate for your special needs so you do not have

to run out of class again! you are not done, you are just beginning the journey

to understanding a new way to live with this!

prnOn Tue, 24 Jan 2012 16:08:59 -0000, Joy

wrote:

This is my first post. Hi everyone.I've been suffering from this

condition since High School. I remember always eating next to a friend, and I

would always hit his arm, and tell him to stop. it's only ever gotten

worse.Last week I was in a class and two people were chewing gum behind

me.. even when I plugged my ears I could still hear one of them gnawing on that

flavorless wad of nastiness. My Fight or Flight activated and I ended up running

(RUNNING) out of the room, interrupting the class saying "I'm DONE, OH I am

completely DONE" and I cried in the bathroom for the next 15 minutes.As

for my family... they understand that I have "a problem" but they don't

understand why or what (and neither do I for that matter) If I am around them

for dinner I just eat as fast as possible and get out of the room. I

can't even LOOK at people eating, especially if they move their mouths a lot

while eating. Big chewers I guess. My sister is one of them and the way her face

distorts to and fro as she's gnawing down whatever saliva, germ covered

montrosity is in her mouth just puts this intense wave of anxiety over me. Like

if this continues on the way it is right now for any longer I might

explode.I feel like a freak. Like a total weirdo because of this. Nobody

around me really understands, they say that I just have to deal with it and get

over it which to some degree I completely agree with, but I've tried and tried

and tried but to no success. I can't force myself to stop sweating, to stop

shaking, to stop crying when this sort of thing happens. I feel alone, I feel

caged by my own brain.

[Guest guest]

I feel you! I graduated college in 05' and my problems weren't as bad back then

but they most certainly are now. And for the " controlling bitch " thing I also

get that alot. I try my best to explain things like " seriously, you are doing

NOTHING WRONG, but my body reacts in an extremely negative and uncomfortable

way "

I found, that by beginning your explanation with something like " you're not

doing anything wrong but... " really helps people to want to understand you

better because you're approaching it with full understanding that these are

normal everyday sounds that SHOULD not bother you, but they do and it is the way

it is and you're only asking for a bit of understanding and consideration for

your problem.

I found that even though someone might still not understand or think I'm just

weird (I in fact AM VERY weird, it's something that makes me beautiful) they're

more willing to turn down their music, or put their pen down, or try to keep

their leg still, or in my case, they spit out their gum or allow me to leave the

dining table.

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> Ateter graduatig from ASU I went back to school for nursing 13 years later. I

have less control in public places than before. I dropped out towards the end of

my first sememsester. I went to my anatomy teacher crying because I wanted her

to ask the girl from across the room to quit clicking her pen. I sat as far away

as possible from this girl and could not believe that someone sitting right next

to her would not ask her to stop. Even more surprised that my teacher would say

nothing. I decided to stay at my current job where I am comfortable to ask

people to quit making trigger sounds. I put a post on about misophonia on my

facebook page. A girl that used to work for me said that she had recently read

am article about this NOW she understands what I go through. I never had heard

of misiphonia, but for years I have explained to everyone what certain sounds do

to me. Chest pain, anger, anxiety. She said on Facebook that before she read the

article she thought that I was just being a controlling Bitch. I worked with her

for years. Now I wonder how many other people feel this way. Once I found out

(month or so ago) about misophonia, I printed copies and gave them to several co

workers and customers. No one else will ever understand, but now they know it

isn't all in my head.

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