one way to get over this---not really but distraction helped when I needed it too!

[Guest guest]

my husband has been in the hospital

since Sunday hovering between here and above.

so many triggers went unnoticed as I dealt with the potential loss of my

greatest guy.

living with his triggers is better than without him at all, after 32 years as

of today.

at first I realized I was edgy hearing all those beeps, alarms, etc.hospital

sounds create many challenges with this disorder.

then he started going down hill fast and all of the sudden the

triggers didn't impact me.

now it is late at night after my 5th day at the hospital with him.

my ears hurt so much, the ringing is at its highest cricket pitch but that's

o.k.

it bothers me in the silence of the night right now. the bubbling of the fish

tank, the noise of being in suburbia vs the forest where we live.

All of my sound machines are at home as I left in such a rush as he traveled

by helicopter.

So I put on my big girl panties and dealt with it to the best of my ability

and pushed the noises away.

temporaryh fix but I'll take almost any reprieve.