Re: But to maintain a thread of sanity

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The only ones I know of are audiologists in someTinitus clinics To: Soundsensitivity Sent: Saturday, February 11, 2012 8:11 PM Subject:

But to maintain a thread of sanity

Living under a family of seven was OK for maybe the first couple of weeks. Annoying, but OK. Since then, I've hated the upstairs tenants and their five children with a tremendous rage that I only recently realized was induced by my condition of misophonia/4S. I'd like to be cuddled next to my husband on the couch right now, but the continuous roar above our living room has set my insides into a furious frenzy. Still now, ten minutes or so since I set up camp in our office with earplugs in and headphones on, I am filled with a strange anxiety that has barely lessened.

It helps to breathe. Yes, the fight or flight response is incredibly torrent in me. Because I cannot challenge the upstairs tenants to a duel, I must remove myself from being directly beneath their romping. It helps to drink "Kava Stress Relief" tea. I anticipate the moment my shoulders descend from their tensed elevation. It helps to share my current trials here, where no one will think I'm overreacting, but understand.

The anger, rage, anxiety and hatred harbor themselves in my body. Shoulders, neck, lower back... It actually hurts to feel this way. Ah, but to maintain a thread of sanity... Beyond the aches of anxiety, I just want to not feel crazy. I can handle a stiff neck. I don't like feeling like I may need to be institutionalized because of the sounds around me (at home, work or otherwise--triggers are everywhere).

I'm learning how to utilize tools to cope. Plugs, earphones, tea, meditation... remembering to breathe... They are helping to maintain a thread of sanity. They work only to treat the symptoms, though. I want the condition to alleviate one day.

Has anyone found a clinician who recognizes misophonia/4S?