OOopsie - Diagnosis for me

January 4, 2012

Hallo, been knocking around here for a while. So, in the last month, had

diagnosis for my own mental health problems. I am Bipolar type II. It all

makes perfect sense and it's helpful as I am now able to research how to manage

the condition.

It's scary but not impossible.

The irony is that in my marriage to Jon (undiagnosed aspie) He is the best thing

for me, and I am the worst thing for him!

Him being best for me:

He's very organised and stable. He is solid and unchanging and instead of

finding him boring, (what he thinks I feel, despite regular explanation that I

think it's wonderful) I feel so protected by him, so happy that I know where I

stand with him, well, most of the time! He is human and so am I!!!

Me being worst for him:

I am chaos on a stick - disorganised, forgetful, very people orientated and also

emotionally very extreme, in that I seem to swing wildly form happy to very

deeply depressed. Sometimes within a day, at my worst, I can got through about

3 changes.

Oh Bum.

He is very supportive and says he wants to be with me, loves me and wants to

help me beat this horrid illness that has so far robbed me of several years,

from being up-down-up-down and so on. It's killed my CV as I have had such a

broken employment history, due to being off work for periods of illness. So now

very hard to find employment, although have got some occasional work now.

Anyway, that's all really. Can anyone think of ways that I might be good for

him, as I am feeling like a big fat leech at the moment, just taking from him,

and I need some ideas of how I help him. One thing is that I do bring new and

interesting experiences into his life, which he would never do on his own, from

buying a house, to owning dogs, and horseriding, among a few things....

He bought me a kindle, so now spending most of my time on that....it reads to

me, making my dyslexia less of a problem, so now reading Bipolar self help books

at a furious rate! Hurrah!

Happy New Year and all that too!

? ? :/ !

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