Re: Overlooked by Ciara MacLaverty, ME Sufferer

[Guest guest]

Thanks for posting this.

Steve M in PA

On Jun 12, 2012 2:45 PM, <CFAlliance-owner > wrote:

Overlooked by Ciara MacLaverty, ME Sufferer

I refuse to put up net curtains or Venetian blinds. Lying in bed, my gaze

falls on cement coloured sky.

I drink in January's daylight – vacant and flat as a day old glass of water.

Through the bare trees, fluorescent light glows sallow from your windows. I

see flickering computer screens,

wipe-clean memo boards; an occasional bald man wearing glasses. I can

almost smell the photocopier;

sense the quiet comfort of everyday purpose.

Can any of you see me?

I suspect my body is clearer than my face; the daily ramp under the duvet;

a forearm glimpsed by the bedside lamp. It's been years. I'm embarrassed; I

want to explain. I don't care; I shouldn't have to explain.

I wait for May's leaves to unfurl once more; the explosion of green that

keeps us obscured from each other. I will throw open my top floor window

and lie in a carpeted pool of sunlight. Summer will smell sweet on my limbs

and only birds and airplanes will see my naked skin.