a note to say I am still alive but having computer problems

March 29, 2004

I am on but just barely. I don't know what has happened to my

computer. Whether this is a result of the so big worm I found or

something I did trying to repair it. I will reformat but I have to

buy a disc first to write my pictures to. My nephew sent me pictures

of my great niece and I don't want to lose them. I could have him

resend them but don't want to. I will get this fixed and will post

as I can for the next few days until it is. It is frustrating. I

love you all and can read my emails without problems so am reading

about what is going on.

I want to put in my 2 cents about this " Fred " . I just want to say -

we need to have standards and we need to stick to them. When my

husband and I first got together I told him that if he wanted to be

with me fine but if he wanted someone else to hit the road. I

wouldn't compete with anyone else.

Now it took me a lot of soul searching and learning about myself that

got me to that point. I feel that it was right. I am not 100% happy

with my life but I don't have to worry about my husband looking for

anyone else. We worked all that out. He is true to me as I am to

him.

You can't settle in the beginning for any less then your standards

are. You shouldn't accept any less then someone who truly loves you

and puts you first in his life after God. You also have to learn to

love yourself before you can love anyone else. You have to be strong

and we can all be that. It may mean being by yourself for a while

but it is worth it.

I didn't find Jay first. I was married to an absolute nightmare but

when I finally realised that I was living the nightmare it was too

late. I didn't love myself - I was totally insecure and dependent on

everyone else for my happiness. I worked hard on building myself up

and then I didn't settle for less.

I pray and stand tall. Anyone can do this if you are willing to work

at it. It doesn't mean your life will be perfect mine is far from it

as all my venting and whining can attest too but there is a solid

foundation that I have to build on.

God bless,

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