Needing positive reinforcement in Illinois

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I was diagnosed with aggresive RA last July and my life has done a

complete turn around since. I'm not sure what to do with myself any

more. I use to be very active. I went to the gym 6 days a week,

rode bikes with the kids, roller skating, etc. etc. When I was

diagnosed, I was put on methotrexate (15mg) and folic acid. I have

no energy. I have days when I can't use one arm or the other, can't

hold a pen to sign my name to a check, or struggle just to get out

of bed in the morning. I'm 34 yrs old, married with two children 6

& 9. I hate having to tell my kids I can't do this or can't do that

today. I get upset with my husband who has know idea what I'm going

through, and believes I'm making a bigger deal out of it than it

is. I'm in social work and have always been a positive

person....I'm really struggling to find a positive right now. I

guess I'm just looking for some people who understand what I'm going

through. Hoping to find some positive suggestions or ideas on how I

can keep this from limiting me so much. Heck, maybe I am making

more of this than I should and just need someone to say " suck it up "

and deal with it. I don't know!! The only thing I know is I'm

angry and depressed......and I don't know how to fix it!