Re: mtx ?? to those who lovemykj

[Guest guest]

My attention span is so short right now, I think I am getting overwhelmed and

depressed. Not all of it is especially cuz of the RA- but I do get frustrated

by how much the RA took outta me.

I have come here a few times and I post a little and then I forget to come back

again. EVeryone here seems to know so much, it is incredible. ANd you all are

so nice.

I used to work 2 full time jobs and go to nursing school and have an immaculate

home- and my 3 kids and I would do some of the silliest things for fun. I loved

crawling in the tubes at chuckee cheeses, stuff like that. The first 2 years I

was sick, I had no insurance. Flares were much more intense and violent, even,

but much much farther apart, so most of the time I could continue on as normal.

Flares are less intense most of the time, now, BUT they are nonstop, and I am

always sleepy and I have become so weak. I cannot work, I hardly can do

housework, I sleep, bathe, nap, visit with the kids on the cuch or on my bed,

nap again, they take me out for a car ride and a bite to eat- and gosh by then I

am ready for bed again. They help me comb my hair and brush my teeth and get

clothes on. This is silly. 2 years ago this is what I did with my ptients for

a living. My lil guy is just turnd 9 and I feel like gosh- I want to play with

him.

I need to power off, it is my middle childs 14th birthday, LOL. I can blow up

some balloons and make things look festive if I can get someone here to tie

them....the silly things I used to take for granted.

- In , Judith Voter <lovemykj2002@y...> wrote:

> Hey Dreamer

> Hey there is someone her to listen I may not be able to type too good

tonight but I am here. Anything you want to talk about. I will be your

sounding board. We all care. Give us a chance.

> Hugs.

> Judith Ann

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> dreamer_plus <dreamer_plus@w...> wrote:

> Hey- I am in Illinois, too! :-)

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> I need to apologize, I want to post so much to you- all my gratitude for your

welcome here etc. :-)

> I do not know- does MTX contribute to depression? Or maybe the pain does or

the RA itself, but I am just so down and it has been a very hard day- crisis

with my child at her school, found out my father moved and left no forwarding

address. Seems everytime I think I am gonna come here and try to make new

friends and be an active part here and everything, things just overwhelm me at

home. I am gonna try to come back here later or tomorrow and say hi again, and

hopefully I will have a better frame of mind and be able to hold a thought.

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> THANK YOU THANK YOU- for being here. Your kindnesses made a hard day easier.

Your information gave me hope. :-)

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