Jealous

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I am really having a problem lately with my jealousy and my husband. I don't

know where this is coming from. Well, yes, maybe I do. I'm 47 years old, 180

pounds, used to weight 100 soaking wet. I feel fat and ugly and old. My

husband's co-workers (he works in the field and at home but does have an office

for his occasional use in his company) are all young, pretty, skinny, full of

life and do not have RA and all the #% that goes along with it. We went to a

business dinner last week that I really didn't want to go to and I wish I

hadn't. My husband does nothing to come on to any of them but he looks a lot

younger than he is and everyone loves him. He just nice to everyone. I felt

like the old woman in the shoe. I had bought a nice little pink and black pant

suit, fixed up decently, but still felt ugly. I'm good at small conversation

but no one seemed to really care to want to talk to me unless I started the

conversation, then it was just answering me. When we went to leave, my back was

turned as he said goodbye to one of the young lovelies and I turned around to

say goodbye and she was blowing him a kiss. She wrinkled her pert little nose

and giggled. I wanted to smack her. He told me that they all do that little

kiss blowing thing when people are leaving. I didn't see anyone else do that.

It's been 18 years since I worked in an office and back then that was would have

been inappropriate. He did it back. I didn't say anything until that night and

then I let him have it. I've mentioned it several more times tonight and he

said he's sick of hearing about it. He was going to the grocery store for me

and was not being very patient when I was trying to make my list. I blew him a

kiss goodbye and he got pissed. What is my problem? I trust him, it's not

that. I just feel that I don't fit in with that bunch and really do not care to

be around them at all. I used to work with 40 men in an office (steel mill) and

I don't think he was ever jealous. But, I never did what I considered flirt

with the men. I was more like the sister that gave them advice for their wives,

always took the wives side on anything they told me and tried to give them a

woman's perspective. Sorry this is so long, I can't believe I'm like this.

Becky