the disease or just saying what he feels like anyhow?

[Guest guest]

I think that my father knows full well what he is saying but has less

control than before. He knows I'm his daughter not his 2nd wife or

girlfriend, etc. I think that his " true " self is unmasked now. It

makes me look back on my entire life and feel revolted, to think that

all this time my father has been having these thoughts about me. I

truly wish that this was just the disease talking, but that isn't the

case. It makes me feel sick, literally. If I am not alone with him in

the future, that would mean I would have to tell my mother why. She

relies on me to look after him every couple of weeks to give her a

break. I think that once she knows she will loose it, this it what I

mean by " all hell breaking loose. " I could see her dumping him in a

hospital over this. I have mixed feelings abouat the consequences of

bringing this out into the open, as I still love him, he is my father

after all.