Guest guest Posted July 11, 2004 Report Share Posted July 11, 2004 Sheri, I'm glad you're comfortable enough here to unburden yourself. Please do tell your rheumatologist about your suicidal thoughts. It's so important to get help. I'm sorry you are struggling. Please keep us posted. We're behind you. I'll tell you where to go! Mayo Clinic in Rochester http://www.mayoclinic.org/rochester s Hopkins Medicine http://www.hopkinsmedicine.org [ ] Re: feeling suicidal > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > with this group. > Thanks for listening. > Sheri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 12, 2004 Report Share Posted July 12, 2004 Sheri, Please make an appointment to see a psychiatrist. Suicidal feelings are a major symptom of depression. It's very common for people with chronic illnesses or who are in chronic pain to become depressed. The good news is that there are some wonderful new anti-depressants on the market which can make you feel much more like yourself and get rid of those feelings. I'm bipolar, which is the " new " name for manic/depressive. I've been at the bottom of that dark pit where you can't see the light, and can't seem to find your way to climb out. It's horrible feeling that way, and I hate to see anyone feeling like that. I've also been in the psych ward. Depression is not your fault - it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, and frequently a shortage of serotonin, one of the brain chemicals. Just as diabetics don't produce enough insulin on their own and need to take insulin shots, or people with underactive thyroids need to take thyroid supplements, those of us with depression need to take meds which will increase the amount of serotonin. Sheri, you don't have to feel this way - so please see a professional so you can get the meds you need to feel better again. From what you wrote, it also sounds like you might benefit from therapy. It certainly helped me a lot with the ghosts of my childhood. And research indicates that people who take anti-depressants AND go to therapy feel better more quickly, and are happier than those who only do one of the two. Please keep writing. I care. Dix [ ] Re: feeling suicidal > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > with this group. > Thanks for listening. > Sheri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 12, 2004 Report Share Posted July 12, 2004 Dear Sheri, I'm really sorry you feel this way. Take it from me suicide is not going to take away your problems it will just create more problems. Secondly if you are really feeling this way I advise you to seek professinal help...Please do we all love you here.God bless you. Dixie <dix7chix@...> wrote: Sheri, Please make an appointment to see a psychiatrist. Suicidal feelings are a major symptom of depression. It's very common for people with chronic illnesses or who are in chronic pain to become depressed. The good news is that there are some wonderful new anti-depressants on the market which can make you feel much more like yourself and get rid of those feelings. I'm bipolar, which is the " new " name for manic/depressive. I've been at the bottom of that dark pit where you can't see the light, and can't seem to find your way to climb out. It's horrible feeling that way, and I hate to see anyone feeling like that. I've also been in the psych ward. Depression is not your fault - it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, and frequently a shortage of serotonin, one of the brain chemicals. Just as diabetics don't produce enough insulin on their own and need to take insulin shots, or people with underactive thyroids need to take thyroid supplements, those of us with depression need to take meds which will increase the amount of serotonin. Sheri, you don't have to feel this way - so please see a professional so you can get the meds you need to feel better again. From what you wrote, it also sounds like you might benefit from therapy. It certainly helped me a lot with the ghosts of my childhood. And research indicates that people who take anti-depressants AND go to therapy feel better more quickly, and are happier than those who only do one of the two. Please keep writing. I care. Dix [ ] Re: feeling suicidal > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > with this group. > Thanks for listening. > Sheri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 12, 2004 Report Share Posted July 12, 2004 I am sure most if not all of us have thoughts of suicide. I don't know which one of you started the post, but I use to think this stuff. I happen to hear or read on the effects of suicide has on the rest of the family when it is done. The effect it has on the children is tremendous and in some cases causes the kids when they are older to do it. It also has an effect on your children's children's who haven't been born yet. I read that knowing I have two children, I couldn't think of it. Plus I do go to church, and I know it is a temporally solution for a permanent problem. I know when I get the idea I have to remember this and the effects on the family. / California Re: [ ] Re: feeling suicidal Dear Sheri, I'm really sorry you feel this way. Take it from me suicide is not going to take away your problems it will just create more problems. Secondly if you are really feeling this way I advise you to seek professional help...Please do we all love you here.God bless you. Dixie <dix7chix@...> wrote: Sheri, Please make an appointment to see a psychiatrist. Suicidal feelings are a major symptom of depression. It's very common for people with chronic illnesses or who are in chronic pain to become depressed. The good news is that there are some wonderful new anti-depressants on the market which can make you feel much more like yourself and get rid of those feelings. I'm bipolar, which is the " new " name for manic/depressive. I've been at the bottom of that dark pit where you can't see the light, and can't seem to find your way to climb out. It's horrible feeling that way, and I hate to see anyone feeling like that. I've also been in the psych ward. Depression is not your fault - it's a chemical imbalance in the brain, and frequently a shortage of serotonin, one of the brain chemicals. Just as diabetics don't produce enough insulin on their own and need to take insulin shots, or people with underactive thyroids need to take thyroid supplements, those of us with depression need to take meds which will increase the amount of serotonin. Sheri, you don't have to feel this way - so please see a professional so you can get the meds you need to feel better again. From what you wrote, it also sounds like you might benefit from therapy. It certainly helped me a lot with the ghosts of my childhood. And research indicates that people who take anti-depressants AND go to therapy feel better more quickly, and are happier than those who only do one of the two. Please keep writing. I care. Dix [ ] Re: feeling suicidal > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > with this group. > Thanks for listening. > Sheri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 12, 2004 Report Share Posted July 12, 2004 Hi , You're right. A distant cousin of mine committed suicide some years back. Tore the family apart. I suppose that's why I wish people could see their individual worth so much more clearly, and that encouragement is so very important. I often wonder when someone has taken his/her life, what future great person of peace or medicine may have just disappeared from our lives. What could they have taught us? Life is so precious. We must honor it. Thanks . Jefersea [ ] Re: feeling suicidal > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > with this group. > Thanks for listening. > Sheri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 13, 2004 Report Share Posted July 13, 2004 Sheri, Our members have given you a lot of great advise. Please do speak to your rheumatologist about this. Believe me, things would not be better without you. I speak from painful experience. I had a brother that committed suicide and saw what it does to the surviving family and friends. Just imagine the burden it would put on your children. They would always wonder if it was their fault. They should have been good, they should have listened. My children were young when my disease was at it¹s worse. I had those thought too, but knowing what it would do to my family, I could never do it. We all have to hang in there and have faith that there will be a breakthrough, and we will all be cured of this dreadful disease. I¹m glad you find this group easy to talk to. We¹ve got some great members here and many have been in your shoes. a > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > with this group. > Thanks for listening. > Sheri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 14, 2004 Report Share Posted July 14, 2004 Hi Sheri. Im glad to hear you are doing better. Im doing better as well, my depression is slowly going away each day. Anyways if you ever want to talk my AOL SN is xoacousticsoulxo. so please hit me up...Anyone from this group can talk to me here. Sheri <sheri02cats@...> wrote:I would never do it because of my two boys. I couldn't leave them like that. I am the one that keeps everything organized and going in our house. My husband would never find anything without me. LOL I know its my depression which gets worse with lack of sleep. I'm trying to get more sleep this week. Sheri > Sheri, > Our members have given you a lot of great advise. Please do speak to your > rheumatologist about this. Believe me, things would not be better without > you. I speak from painful experience. I had a brother that committed > suicide and saw what it does to the surviving family and friends. Just > imagine the burden it would put on your children. They would always wonder > if it was their fault. They should have been good, they should have > listened. My children were young when my disease was at it¹s worse. I had > those thought too, but knowing what it would do to my family, I could never > do it. We all have to hang in there and have faith that there will be a > breakthrough, and we will all be cured of this dreadful disease. > I¹m glad you find this group easy to talk to. We¹ve got some great members > here and many have been in your shoes. > a > > > > > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 & 4. > > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7 but > > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and lately > > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad, more > > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I was > > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time my > > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but still do > > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I > > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have a > > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to discuss > > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand. There > > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its easy > > with this group. > > Thanks for listening. > > Sheri > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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