Re: feeling suicidal

[Guest guest]

I would never do it because of my two boys. I couldn't leave them

like that. I am the one that keeps everything organized and going

in our house. My husband would never find anything without me. LOL

I know its my depression which gets worse with lack of sleep. I'm

trying to get more sleep this week.

Sheri

> Sheri,

> Our members have given you a lot of great advise. Please do speak

to your

> rheumatologist about this. Believe me, things would not be better

without

> you. I speak from painful experience. I had a brother that

committed

> suicide and saw what it does to the surviving family and friends.

Just

> imagine the burden it would put on your children. They would

always wonder

> if it was their fault. They should have been good, they should

have

> listened. My children were young when my disease was at it¹s

worse. I had

> those thought too, but knowing what it would do to my family, I

could never

> do it. We all have to hang in there and have faith that there

will be a

> breakthrough, and we will all be cured of this dreadful disease.

> I¹m glad you find this group easy to talk to. We¹ve got some

great members

> here and many have been in your shoes.

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> > Hi. My name is Sheri. I'm almost 35, married, two boys ages 7 &

4.

> > I work full-time and I have RA. It started as JRA when I was 7

but

> > only lasted about 6 months. Then it came back at age 21 and

lately

> > it has been a lot worse. I, too, have cut my wrists. Not bad,

more

> > superficial then anything. It will be two years in December. I

was

> > put in the hospital - on the psycho floor - because at that time

my

> > alcohol level was 0.4. I have a handle on the drinking but

still do

> > have thoughts sometimes if things would be better without me. I

> > wouldn't do anything but do think about it ocassionally. I have

a

> > check up with my rheumy in a couple weeks and I am going to

discuss

> > it a little. I thought you guys would be able to understand.

There

> > aren't a lot of people I can open up with completely, but its

easy

> > with this group.

> > Thanks for listening.

> > Sheri

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