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[Guest guest]

Hi...the surgery related remission is over and I'm sad to say I still

have RA...I guess it's just wishful thinking to hope it would disappear

permanently. I knew it was inside hiding, but it was sure nice not to

experience it for awhile.

We'll be moving within the month, and I was offered an apartment that

has been made " accomodative. " Well, the housing fellow called Friday

and asked me if I " really " needed an " accomodative " apartment. Now mind

you, I did not ask for one as I didn't know I could. But as the

apartment is subsidized, in my application I was asked if I had

disabilities and I listed RA, PsA, OA and FMS. Well, I told him

honestly that I probably did not need one as badly as someone in a

wheelchair, but I cannot, at this point, carry groceries, laundry, and,

at times, me, up a straight flight of stairs. So he faxed over a form

to my rheumy to see if he will say I do indeed need a ground level,

accomodative unit.

OK, now I feel guity. My kids and friends are 100% adamant that I need

this type of apartment. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself, or getting

ahead of myself. I am losing weight and feeling stronger in some ways.

But the RA et al are not likely to totally disappear as I lose weight.

And in the " here and now " , I do need some assistance. If I get to the

place where I am much more healthy I hope, hope, hope to be able to work

and not need accomodation. But, I can't forsee the future.

Anybody have any thoughts?

I see my bariatric surgeon tomorrow, so I'll report the news when I get

home.

Love & hugs to all...

Tess