Cindi and R/A family

[Guest guest]

Thank you for your very nice post. I am writing before I chicken

out. I cried upon reading your post. The end where you write to post

if lonely and so on. I am having a very hard time. I just don't like

sharing that. I like to hide behind a smile. I can't do it anymore.

I am so afraid of what I am having to deal with. I thank each and

everyone of you as I do read as much as I am able. These days it is

alot as I am homebound due to alot of inflamation. I know that most

of us deal with such difficulties and pain and frustrations with the

medical profession. I seem to be in tears when it comes to the Dr's

I have had to deal with. It frightening to have so much going on in

my body and not understanding why. I'm told I have r/a along with

other family members who live so far away. Sjogrens,fibro,migraines

and the list goes on. Now high blood pressure was just added on

Friday. Another pill....diltiazem xr 120mg capsules. I hate pills

and I hate having to just trust what the Dr. says. And yet I have

been trying to get this Dr. to put me back on enbrel as my previous

Dr. had me on for years and she won't. I'll be seeing another ruemy

on the 22nd and I hope that goes better. I have to admit that I am

so depressed. I hide it well. Or at least I think I hide it well. I

hate being depressed as I have so much to be grateful for, in spite

of all my health problems. I'm trying. I'm thankful to for

being a friend and helping me with blood info when i first joined

this group. Also I'd like to say thank you to a for starting

this group which is so needed. And to all the members who post,

thank you. I wish for everyone a very safe and Happy Holidays with

friends and loved ones. May God bless each and everyone of you.

Sincerly,Marie

Before I forget...I'd like to know more about the card exchange. It

sounds like fun. My P.O. Box 672454 is in Chugiak,Ak. 99567 I never

get anything worth reading. I send out cards but it seems like now

it's e-cards and I prefer the old fashioned way. Merry Christmas!!!