Thanks again for the great support! Would love some more!

August 21, 2006

Once again, thanks to all who took the time to read and respond to me email. I

truly felt better after reading each and every one of your replies. However, I

still feel truly ashamed, completely and utterly humiliated. Why is it so hard

for my Dr. to understand the pain I'm in????

Ya know it would be one thing if my PCP didn't want to give me anymore meds, as

he was concerned and simply doesn't fully understand the pain I'm in. Yet he

went above and beyond by telling the urgent care NOT to treat me, AS WELL as the

on call urologist. I forgot to mention that in my email.

I actually called the oncall urologist and was told that my PCP had said not to

treat me. Then, when I called my PCP, he was rude as can be, not just to me, but

to my husband. I was in such pain and told him that....I started crying and

asked if he could talk to my husband.

The drs exact words were, " , I don't care if you put on your grandmother,

your mother, sister, whoever on the phone, I'm

not going to give you anything. "

He told my husband that if I was in that much pain, I should be in the ER on

morphine, yet when I was at urgent care, he told them not to treat me.

I think I know better than my PCP when I'm having a kidney stone attack, and he

has no idea the pain they can cause. HE's

admitted he's never had to suffer w/one.

I just don't understand what I was supposed to do. I'm still in pain, and am in

tears as I write this. I feel like my life is over and that thread holding me

together is ready to rip any second.

It's also unfortunate because my only mini vacation all year was TRULY RUINED.

I mean to the point where I couldn't go to the restaurants, the pool, to the

amusement park, nothing.

As a result, my parents fought the whole time, which brought back horrible

memories of them fighting physically and verbally as

a child. It all came back to me, and it was like I was 14 yrs. old again,

hiding in my closet, crying.

My brother ended up leaving early as he couldn't put up with my mom, and I can't

tell you the guilt I feel cause I was sick.

I wasn't offended by anyone's post. I thank you all for your words of support.

Now, it's just a matter of wondering where to go from here.

ANy advice once again would be welcome.

Thanks again,

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