diagnosed but don't believe it.

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just want to feel better, like I did not that long ago. Can't

believe t hat Rheumatoid Arthritis could really make someone feel

this crappy. Just can't believe it, secretly thinking that it's in

my h ead and that I could cure it with enough positive thoughts.

Have a couple of books about that. Work keeps me going during t he

day. Like my job. Huge caseload though, you know, government

social work. Pain is so apparent at night and I just bite it during

the day. Just waiting for it to go away. I am a happy person. I

try hard at all t hat I do. I don't let people down. This just

needs to go away.