Re: our depressing deadly disease Lots of feelings

September 9, 2004

SOme days I am depressed about it. SOme days I am sad about it, I miss school

and work, so very very much, and I definetly miss having a little money. I am

so tired of always having to tell my kids " no " to everything all the time.

I miss running up and down my house stairs 50 times a day. SOme days I get

angry about it. SOme days I am frustrated trying to figure out new ways to try

to do things that I used to do before without thinking about them at all. Some

days I feel sorry for myself, some days I don't.

I think all of those feelings are a part of having any illness or diisease. I

do not think you are strange for being depressed about this thing- I just think

I want to give you another hug.....(((Jennie)))))

I get depressed about it, too. :-) Hang in there.

- In , " Jennie G " <xponder70@y...> wrote:

> Yes, but I wasn't feeling particularly depressed about it TODAY until

> all those posts. I know the message is important. But thinking

> about having my life shortened, or that my mom's life will be

> shortened, is more than I was prepared to deal with today.

>

> I agree with you - I am always a grass-is-greener-on-my-side kind of

> person. I'm doing everything I can to properly treat my disease,

> it's under control with medication, and I know I am very lucky.

>

> > AW, yes, some days it IS depressing. Other days it is not so bad.

> No, I do not like knowing I have a serious illness, but I am also so

> grateful that for me, treatment helps.

> > Some days the newspaper upsets me, it can be a sad world out

> there. But at the same time, I can go out into that world and find

> good, too. :-)

> >

September 9, 2004