Letting go

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Hi All

When I was in the hospital for 3 weeks after my ERCP ordeal I clearly

remember saying " Ok God, this is out of my control, it's up to you. If you

want me now, fine and if not fine. " It was such a relief to let go of it

all. I was in ICU because of " severe hemorrhagic pancreatitis and ARDS. " I

was not expected to live, but (obviously - LOL!) I did.

My prayers are with you all, especially Laurie and Jacquelyn at this time.

Dianne A. from Colorado

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[Guest guest]

Just been thinking about – or rather experiencing, some of the effects

of having used the work in my life.

A friend once told me that the body stores up situations, etc that the

mind can't handle at the time, for example stuff that happens as a

child – and that is what I/we react to when under stress – or

something like that.

Anyway, just reflecting on what can sometimes happen for me – the

thought comes up " if I let go I will die " – as I inquire into that, be

with it, etc stuff will come up / out – crying, physical shaking,

sometimes quite deep wretching / on the verge of vomiting – and old

memories / thoughts come up at the same time.

It's like they are waiting to be released, allowed out.

This morning it was all about leaving home – I am going away for a

week tomorrow – and I found old thoughts coming up and memories, some

I haven't thought about for a long time. Moving house as a child,

going to university, more recent departures, different kinds of stuff,

including just `leaving myself' for long periods of time.

Anyway, I now find that I am able to be with these kind of emotions

and physical feelings more – not try and bottle them up, run away from

them – let them through and out.

It's not what I expected when I first started with the work – my

motive was to always be happy, never sad – now I find myself more

comfortable (only more, not completely!) with letting this kind of

stuff out, letting them have their voice and time to be expressed.

Maybe this fits in to what's been said about realizations / aha's with

the work.

Maybe this stuff would have happened anyway in my life, but applying

the work certainly feels like it has/is easing the process.

Maybe a bit like childbirth – the difference between resisting it and

going with it – as if I would know!

Ok, enough.

With love and thanks,

Jon