Re: Addictions kicking in

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gary zukav says sex addiction is very common.

maybe because he used to be a sex addict years ago

ANd of course we have all been brain washed by

movies , tv ,popular songs.etc.

Did anyone say the phrase i need a girl when

you were in pain or unconsciouis.

as phrases like that can act like hypnotic

suggestions. --

i believe i have an engram phrase that says

i should die..

or i should have died.. when i was born

the doctor was late in arriving.

weird as that may be.

in your business again sorry, rh

- In Loving-what-is , " facy102 " wrote:

>

> I NEED A GIRL !!!!!

> is that true?

> yes.

> can you absolutely know this is true?

> not absolutely.

> how do you react to the thought you need a girl?

> sadness, sinking into dreamworld, feeling empty, resisting

>

> ok stop.

> my suffering is not caused by the thought i need a girl, i suffer

> before that, it's like i have an inner wound, where many things can

> press on.

> and then comes the thought i need a girl as a theory as to what do i

> need to end the suffering.

> yea.. that's it.

> what is the essence of the wound? i don't know.. all i know is that

> when i have approval it doesn't hurt anymore, when i get my fix.. im ok.

> also it doesn't hurt when nothing press on it, when there's no girl in

> the picture, i see no girls, and i dont think about it (which is very

> rare).

> but then i go outside.. i will see a cute girl wherever, and there's

> the pain again.

> what thoughts are going through my head then?

> im not good enough

> i need to fuck her

> everyone get's one but not me

> she doesn't need me

> she's so beautiful

> i need her

> if i wont do anything someone else will

> everybody knows how to do this but not me

> there's something very wrong with me

> im nobody to her

> she thinks im stalking her

> she's afraid of me

>

> but regardless to those thoughts.. what about the desire to want to be

> close to her?

> it's a sexual energy, i can feel it.. i really need this, i feel like

> an addicted person who's going crazy without his fix, i need my drug,

> im shaking and behaving weird and scaring of people like a dragged

person.

> but it's worse then being addicted to drugs, cause with drugs after

> awhile you dont get your fix.. you get free from it, but here.. it's

> an endless need, i rarely get a fix and the desire only gets bigger.

> i cannot find within me a thought that creates this.

> and if i dont react this, if im only staying with this feeling, the

> addiction, the pain, the hornyness, i can sense it is physical, it is

> real sensation.

> i know rationally that no girl can feed this, no external source can

> feed the hunger, so what is then?

> what about excepting things the way they are?

> that means excepting the unstoppable hunger and the pain of the wound

> and the sexual desire, not trying to solve them, what happens then..

> it basicly means to stay in the suffering without resisting it.

> it does not guarantee an end to it or a cure, on the contrary, it is a

> conscious choice to experience the suffering fully.

> oh brother..

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