Re: Should I write all work out?

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What's keeping you from telling her NOW? I mean, has she passed away?

~ Love, nne

>

> I find myself doing the work in my head alot...so I decided to write

this one out and see

> where it leads (already did in my head but maybe there is more)

>

> IS IT OK TO STOP AT THE HEAD OR SHOULD I ALWAYS WRITE IT OUT?

Posting here

> seems to be more of a release than writing on my paper. Is that

true??? I guess I could

> work on it too!

>

> Thought:

> I should have told her how much she meant to me and that I loved her

>

> True? No can't know...plus I didn't ..in words

>

> How do I feel with this thought...sick, sad, depressed, frustrated

cause I can't tell her

> now, it is like a dark cloud over me always cause she is/was the one

person in my life

> that seemed to care for/about me, feel like screaming at the top of

my lungs-

> frustration- with not knowing if I will ever see her again (realized

she does " visit " me as

> says:)

>

> How would I feel without thought in my life now?

> free to be with family and others, really be present with them and

TELL them I love them

> and how much I care about them. Peaceful. maybe see some of what she

seen in nature

> and people, have qualities like her??

>

> can I see a stress free reason to keep the thought: I should have

told her how much she

> meant to me and that I loved her? No...cause when it pops up I

immediately have an

> overwhelming sadness, emptyness etc

>

> Turn around:

>

> I shouldn't have told her how much she meant to me and that I loved

her...cause I didn't

>

> I DID tell her how much she meant to me and that I loved her..I was

there helping her,

> taking her to the doctor, spending time with her, I did things and

gave her things to

> make her feel better

>

> I should tell myself how much I mean to me and that I love me..yes

it could be like a

> warm soft enveloping blanket. In turn I could love others.

>

> This work has helped so much...the hardest is not knowing if I will

see her again...I have

> " beliefs " but as Adyashanti says beliefs are not reality...I don't

know what is to come...I

> guess I can have hope but not attach to it so it takes away from my now.

>

> To the post about Mom and Movies...if you can...go NOW with her:)

>