Guest guest Posted December 6, 2008 Report Share Posted December 6, 2008 hi facy, the phrase that stuck out for me by a long way was " I've lost the love of my life " also you could look into " i fuck up every opportunity " and maybe there are other thoughts/beliefs, such as " I should have done it differently " . But, as I say, the big one for me is " the love of my life " . Good luck my friend :-) Jon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2008 Report Share Posted December 6, 2008 i dont know that this would be helpful to you at all. But i beleive strongly in reincarnation and that we meet people we have known in previous lives often. And if you are meant to be with someone they will show up . you dont have to force it or go looking for them. I guess i believe in karma . and people we have unresolved karma with just show up Thats why i believe in love at first sight. why is it some people remain single??.. i dont know. i have many single friends. I think people may learn more being single. Or maybe in your last life you hated being married. and wished for a single life. Wayne Dyer says on the louise hay dvd he wanted to teach people self reliance.. and he said god said to him before being born are you sure you want to teach self reliance? and dyer said yes.. and god said well we better get your little ass in an orphanage then.. Dyer lived in foster care as a young child.. i think like many people you are still looking for someone to make you happy.. no one can. I suppsoe you have read I need your love is that true. ? i still feel that also. I remember being single and thinking how happy i would be to be married and to have kids.. I got married and had kids and still was miserable because of my thinking. im still working on that.. roslyn > > i have this small and seemingly unimportant experience that whenever i > think of i experience great pain and remorse. > im a musician, and there was one night a month ago where i performed > on some small jazz club, it was i late night show after the main show. > we had a crowd ready from the previous show. > before the show i walked outside through the crowd, and saw a girl who > seemed beautiful to my eyes, so i got kinda nervous that i have her as > my crowed. > after couple of minutes i saw her also outside speaking on the phone. > i looked at her while trying not to stair. > then she hanged up and sat down and had a smoke.. > i thought to myself i gotta do something, that it's an opportunity. > so i walked beside her as if it's nothing to do with her, and iv asked > if she was on the previous show or is she staying for the late night show. > she was extremely nice, she told me she's there with her parents from > the north, and laughed at herself that she's 28 years old and dating > her parents, i asked her if she likes jazz.. and it seemed she was > happy to speak to me, was my taste, liked the same music as i am > (which is rare by itself) and a nice girl in the right age. > i told her im the next to go on stage and she seemed impressed. > i was still kinda defensive trying to keep myself cool and fake > calmness, and then i told her " well.. i gotta go get ready " . > i don't know what came over me, some fear, i didn't wanted to ruin > this so i thought im making some sort of maneuver and that ill see her > later on and maybe make some move after she saw me perform. > thus the show rolled and i was thinking about her watching me all a > long, something that didn't quite help me perform as well as i could.. > and the show was over.. and i went the crowd to look for her.. and she > was gone! > since then every time i think of her i feel as if iv lost the love of > my life or something, i feel iv blown it and that this symbolize how > something is wrong with me that i fuck up every opportunity, not to > mention how rare they are in my life in any way. > i dont have a well phrased thought about this to investigate, just the > image of her or the club is enough to cause an emotional stress. > i'll appreciate your observations. > facy. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2008 Report Share Posted December 6, 2008 katie says if you want to see the love of your life look in teh mirror. -- In Loving-what-is , " Jon " wrote: > > hi facy, > > the phrase that stuck out for me by a long way was " I've lost the love > of my life " > > also you could look into " i fuck up every opportunity " and maybe there > are other thoughts/beliefs, such as " I should have done it differently " . > > But, as I say, the big one for me is " the love of my life " . > > Good luck my friend :-) > > Jon > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2008 Report Share Posted December 6, 2008 > > hi facy, > > the phrase that stuck out for me by a long way was " I've lost the love > of my life " > > also you could look into " i fuck up every opportunity " and maybe there > are other thoughts/beliefs, such as " I should have done it differently " . > > But, as I say, the big one for me is " the love of my life " . > > Good luck my friend :-) > > Jon > so lets see. i lost the love of my life is this true? maybe i do i react to this thought? i feel like crying, sadness, emptiness, im mad at myself, hate myself, picturing her none stop, not present, feeling in a void, tension in the shoulders, wanting to fix this.. to control this somehow, thinking what ill do next time or how im i going to meet her, wanting to compensate myself with another girl, needing love, needing sex, hornyness, suffering, loneliness. can i see a reason to let go of this thought? yes, the pain. can i see a reason to keep the thought.. which is not painful? maybe.. something do to with control and not letting this happen again, but i know it's only making it worse.. so no. who would i be without that thought? present, more peaceful, less disturbed, feeling less addicted, normal, sane. T.A: i did not lost the love of my life 1. apparently she was not the love of my life, she was only a 2 minutes of them. 2. i did not lost the love of my life cause i have the love of my life. (not that i sense it) 3. there's another girl who is truly the love of my life. 4. i will meet her again and she will be it. 5. i dont know whats awaiting for me, it's not me to decide or know. T.A: the love of my life has lost me 1.i stopped counting on god, life and events, and went back to my habbit to control, i stepped myself out of the onnes. T.A: i lost myself right.. im hardly ever present.. im being replaced by a fantasy. T.A: she's lost the love of her life donno.. not likely.. no idea.. maybe. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2008 Report Share Posted December 6, 2008 Nice work Facy - thank you, Jon > > > > hi facy, > > > > the phrase that stuck out for me by a long way was " I've lost the love > > of my life " > > > > also you could look into " i fuck up every opportunity " and maybe there > > are other thoughts/beliefs, such as " I should have done it differently " . > > > > But, as I say, the big one for me is " the love of my life " . > > > > Good luck my friend :-) > > > > Jon > > > > > so lets see. > i lost the love of my life > is this true? > maybe > i do i react to this thought? > i feel like crying, sadness, emptiness, im mad at myself, hate myself, > picturing her none stop, not present, feeling in a void, tension in > the shoulders, wanting to fix this.. to control this somehow, thinking > what ill do next time or how im i going to meet her, wanting to > compensate myself with another girl, needing love, needing sex, > hornyness, suffering, loneliness. > > can i see a reason to let go of this thought? > yes, the pain. > can i see a reason to keep the thought.. which is not painful? > maybe.. something do to with control and not letting this happen > again, but i know it's only making it worse.. so no. > > who would i be without that thought? > present, more peaceful, less disturbed, feeling less addicted, normal, > sane. > > T.A: i did not lost the love of my life > 1. apparently she was not the love of my life, she was only a 2 > minutes of them. > 2. i did not lost the love of my life cause i have the love of my > life. (not that i sense it) > 3. there's another girl who is truly the love of my life. > 4. i will meet her again and she will be it. > 5. i dont know whats awaiting for me, it's not me to decide or know. > > T.A: the love of my life has lost me > 1.i stopped counting on god, life and events, and went back to my > habbit to control, i stepped myself out of the onnes. > > T.A: i lost myself > right.. im hardly ever present.. im being replaced by a fantasy. > > T.A: she's lost the love of her life > donno.. not likely.. no idea.. maybe. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 6, 2008 Report Share Posted December 6, 2008 facy what about this TA.. I found the love of my life it was me.. loving me and loving my life.. is my job no one elses. im the only one that is with me 24 7 forever take yourself out and give yourself a present or something like that rh > > > > > > hi facy, > > > > > > the phrase that stuck out for me by a long way was " I've lost the love > > > of my life " > > > > > > also you could look into " i fuck up every opportunity " and maybe there > > > are other thoughts/beliefs, such as " I should have done it > differently " . > > > > > > But, as I say, the big one for me is " the love of my life " . > > > > > > Good luck my friend :-) > > > > > > Jon > > > > > > > > > so lets see. > > i lost the love of my life > > is this true? > > maybe > > i do i react to this thought? > > i feel like crying, sadness, emptiness, im mad at myself, hate myself, > > picturing her none stop, not present, feeling in a void, tension in > > the shoulders, wanting to fix this.. to control this somehow, thinking > > what ill do next time or how im i going to meet her, wanting to > > compensate myself with another girl, needing love, needing sex, > > hornyness, suffering, loneliness. > > > > can i see a reason to let go of this thought? > > yes, the pain. > > can i see a reason to keep the thought.. which is not painful? > > maybe.. something do to with control and not letting this happen > > again, but i know it's only making it worse.. so no. > > > > who would i be without that thought? > > present, more peaceful, less disturbed, feeling less addicted, normal, > > sane. > > > > T.A: i did not lost the love of my life > > 1. apparently she was not the love of my life, she was only a 2 > > minutes of them. > > 2. i did not lost the love of my life cause i have the love of my > > life. (not that i sense it) > > 3. there's another girl who is truly the love of my life. > > 4. i will meet her again and she will be it. > > 5. i dont know whats awaiting for me, it's not me to decide or know. > > > > T.A: the love of my life has lost me > > 1.i stopped counting on god, life and events, and went back to my > > habbit to control, i stepped myself out of the onnes. > > > > T.A: i lost myself > > right.. im hardly ever present.. im being replaced by a fantasy. > > > > T.A: she's lost the love of her life > > donno.. not likely.. no idea.. maybe. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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