Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Vicky, You are so open about your despair and pain. I try to cover it with bravado. I want to be what people expect me to be. But I ,like all of you ,feel so discouraged at times. The worst is of course in the middle of the night. This morning I woke up and thought....what is there to get up for...more nebulizers, more pills, more discomfort...I went back to sleep...never do that. I am having a hard time shaking the miseries today. So, believe me, we do understand....all of us. >> Well, it's 1am and here I am, hurting and can't sleep. I want to take > a Xanax but I took a 1000 Vicadin and the 2 together would knock me out > for days. I miss my baby, the daughter that got married, I'm so happy > for her, but I feel like I lost my baby. Plus, I know I've said this > before and so have others, but I'm so tired of dragging oxygen with me > all over, I'm tired of pills, 27 a day is too much. I asked God today > to please let me have 1 more Christmas, I almost feel greedy because he > let me see my baby get married. I try to talk to my husband and he trys > to listen but I know after awhile he has to get tired of me > complaining. I have been so blessed, my Social Security was approved, > so why am I so depressed? I know I'm starting to hurt more , I think > maybe that scares me and reminds me that I am sick. I have a song I > listen to called...The only real Peace that I have dear Lord is in You. > That's so true. I'm sorry for being so negative but I knew if anyone > would understand , it's you guys. So as these tears flow, I thank you > all for listening to me and I love you all.....> > vicky IPH/PF 4/06> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Hello Sweetie, I just hate it that you are having such an emotional painful time. Your sweet daughter isn't gone off somewhere trust me. She will be there when you need her. Daughters are like that. It won't be tooooo long she will probably be bringing you a precious sweet little face to kiss on. You WILL BE HERE for a good long time yet. Don't forget only God knows when we are finished. So try to look forward not down. It is hard to live for the future but we have to because the present is a rough place to be. BUT we DO have life to live yet. God comfort you and let you see His wonders of life all around you. Joy comes in the morning.. God Bless You Vicky Much Love and Prayers, Peggy 9/04 ipf > Well, it's 1am and here I am, hurting and can't sleep. I want to take > a Xanax but I took a 1000 Vicadin and the 2 together would knock me out > for days. I miss my baby, the daughter that got married, I'm so happy > for her, but I feel like I lost my baby. Plus, I know I've said this > before and so have others, but I'm so tired of dragging oxygen with me > all over, I'm tired of pills, 27 a day is too much. I asked God today > to please let me have 1 more Christmas, I almost feel greedy because he > let me see my baby get married. I try to talk to my husband and he trys > to listen but I know after awhile he has to get tired of me > complaining. I have been so blessed, my Social Security was approved, > so why am I so depressed? I know I'm starting to hurt more , I think > maybe that scares me and reminds me that I am sick. I have a song I > listen to called...The only real Peace that I have dear Lord is in You. > That's so true. I'm sorry for being so negative but I knew if anyone > would understand , it's you guys. So as these tears flow, I thank you > all for listening to me and I love you all..... > > vicky IPH/PF 4/06 > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 26, 2006 Report Share Posted August 26, 2006 Vicky, Peggy, Once again the space monkeys got the second half of my post. I got up from the computer this morning and commenced cleaning up my house. Not the job that I used to do, but swiped over. Good therapy! I, too, pray in bed at night while falling asleep. I could not have gotten through all this sickness without our Lord. It is so good to know that a wonderful spiritual home awaits me....and amazing to know that God could love me so much as to give his son for me. Peggy, I am so thrilled at your success with losing weight. You are doing great!! Rah!Rah! keep it up! Hugs, Joyce > >> > >> Well, it's 1am and here I am, hurting and can't sleep. I want to take> >> a Xanax but I took a 1000 Vicadin and the 2 together would knock me> > out> >> for days. I miss my baby, the daughter that got married, I'm so happy> >> for her, but I feel like I lost my baby. Plus, I know I've said this> >> before and so have others, but I'm so tired of dragging oxygen with me> >> all over, I'm tired of pills, 27 a day is too much. I asked God today> >> to please let me have 1 more Christmas, I almost feel greedy because> > he> >> let me see my baby get married. I try to talk to my husband and he> > trys> >> to listen but I know after awhile he has to get tired of me> >> complaining. I have been so blessed, my Social Security was approved,> >> so why am I so depressed? I know I'm starting to hurt more , I think> >> maybe that scares me and reminds me that I am sick. I have a song I> >> listen to called...The only real Peace that I have dear Lord is in> > You.> >> That's so true. I'm sorry for being so negative but I knew if anyone> >> would understand , it's you guys. So as these tears flow, I thank you> >> all for listening to me and I love you all.....> >> > >> vicky IPH/PF 4/06> >> > > > > > >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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