Guest guest Posted December 10, 2008 Report Share Posted December 10, 2008 is this true? yes can you absolutely know this? yes how much do you believe this is true from 1 to 10? 8 so can you absolutely know its true? no how do you react to this thought? how do you live when you believe this? i mentally leave my body, i feel empty and that something is missing.. a disconnection from myself and from where i am, i cling to every cute girl i see, im being obsessed about it, im mad about the whole world god and everything for not taking care of me, i feel cursed, i feel righteous and that i know whats best for me and i judge reality for not doing its job. i try to block the pain with cigarettes, drugs, porn, virtual worlds, constant manipulations to get approval. im tensed i hardly can ever flow with stuff and an immediate result. im embarrassed from the world and think everybody on the street see that im not an attractive. depression. who would you be if you didn't think you need a girl? happy, relaxed, not clingy, whole. T.A: i dont need a girl 1.i managed without it for all my life 2.it's not really something i need, i know this, im surviving and progress professionally and spiritually well. 3.im not ready yet, i can't have a stable relationship with this addition in my life. T.A: i need myself 1.im betraiting myself by stepping out of myself that much. 2.im not there for me when admiring girls this way 3.im the one i live with truly, and lately im not there for myself. T.A: a girl needs me 1.those who i have the problem with are rarely see who i am, they never actually reject me, they reject the insecure weirdo that replaces me while im not present. i will miss the train and be alone forever while everybody is coupled. is this true? donno. how do you react to this thought? fear, scared, lonely, crazy, jealous, tensed. can you see a reason to drop the thought? yes. can you see a reason which is not stressful to keep it? well, i think it motivates me take action. is this fear based? yes can you find a reason which is not fear based? no. who would you be without the thought? more present, wouldn't mind the business of the future. less anxious, and more than everything - i dont know. T.A: i wont miss the train and be alone forever 1.could be 2.im an amazing guy T.A: the train will miss me and be alone forever 1.could be that it will happen differently with me, as to the ideal of the way i think it should be, who know my path. when i cling to story of how things should be i loss my authenticity and the sense of ones with everything and everybody. that reminds me of a saying.. if a clock would be conscious of itself, it wouldn't keep the time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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