To facy

[Guest guest]

i remember reading this email a long time ago and didnt

reply but i thought i would relook at it.. maybe

you can find what you are believeing and see that that

is what you will see in the outer world.. every time.

not to beat yourself up but to notice.

you cant change the mirror if your thoughts are ths same

its like trying to put makeup on the mirror.

or wanting the mirror to show us a yellow shirt when

we are wearing blue.

as explained to me by david friedman.

another thing i thought about is that you might want to

look at the Dianetics book.

Sometimes people we love give us beliefs when we are unconscious...

I used to think it was that you had a bad relationship

with your mom.. i was in your business and of course that is not true.

im just trying to be helpful..

none of this maybe true at all.. but is it possible

your mom said to you.. no one will ever love you like i do..

not to be vicious or mean or mess up your head intentionally..

and i certainly am not blaming your mom

we all do stuff unconsciously and not in a malicious way..

were you told.. no girl will be good enough or love you enough they

will use you.. etc

something along that line.. if it was or soemthing similar.

it may have become your belief and so that is what is reflected

in the mirror of the outer world.. thw universe gives us

what we are thinking every time..

Friedman said if you want to know your beliefs.. look at

your outer world.. it reflects our beliefs.. they are

not true.. as in the unmanifested anything is possible.

but with our belief system we create and push it away..

does that make any sense to you.. if not disregrad.. i know

i shouldnt be in your business..

theres so many factors.. to consider. as many perhaps as there

are people on this planet.

love, roslyn

-- In Loving-what-is , " facy102 " wrote:

>

>

> > A better turnaround for no girl ever wants me could be " Girls

> > sometimes wants me. " Can you find that?

>

> not really. they never wants me.

> im really tired of this.

>

> >

> > Where I go with this is how much of this stuff can be tied into our

> > identity's past - like looking at when our mothers wanted us (and

> > maybe when we thought they didn't).

>

> the odd thing is that i never had a problem with my mother, she

> allways gave me much affection .. till this day, she's my best friend.

>

> >

> > Under the turnaround 'No me ever wants a girl' - notice how you

> don't

> > want girls to be how they are - you want them to be more interested

> in

> > you, to not reject you, etc.

>

> right. thats true.

> very painfull.. allthough i can't seem to find in me a way to accept

> the fact that they didn't like me .. i mean .. some girl must like

> me .. thats the real thought.

> when trying to accept it .. i feel like im fooling myself.

>

> >

> > Also how 'want' is very specific - plenty of people want me as a

> > friend - and if I don't think that's enough I'll be unhappy. If I

> > believe 'want' has to be as boyfriend/girlfriend or as husband/wife

> > then I'm in the shit.

>

> people dont want me as a friend usualy.. they may say it sometimes in

> order to not reject me That badly.

> but eventualy.. not friends.. no lovers.

>

> >

> > I also go, more generally, into looking at this concept of 'wanting

> > me' - how no-one ever really wants me, they want what they think I

> can

> > provide - security, a good life, happiness, peace of mind,

> friendship,

>

>

> right.. they want their own projection of who you are.

> that's why people invest so much energy in making you run a quality

> movie about them .. cuase it gives you power in their eyes.

> but yet.. i can't seem to stop wondering to her buisness, i had this

> date 2 days ago.. and since then she broke contact, i can't stop

> thinking about her.. not becuase she's that greate.. but because i

> need her aproaval .. i feel like shit all day .. not energy... im

> mentaly away.. i feel like i have the flu or something..

> and i can't seem to choose to be present.. or simply.. not doing

> that..

> and i find myself doing the work again and again and again about the

> same thoughts.. i need her .. i want her .. bla bla .. every time i

> do get a glance about whats going on inside me and it does make me

> feel abit better.. only abit .. it's not im bursting luaghing like

> people here thought i should react .. but it's the same thoughts over

> and over.. generaly .. i feel sucks and im tired of all of this.

>