Guest guest Posted December 14, 2008 Report Share Posted December 14, 2008 I find myself doing the work in my head alot...so I decided to write this one out and see where it leads (already did in my head but maybe there is more) IS IT OK TO STOP AT THE HEAD OR SHOULD I ALWAYS WRITE IT OUT? Posting here seems to be more of a release than writing on my paper. Is that true??? I guess I could work on it too! Thought: I should have told her how much she meant to me and that I loved her True? No can't know...plus I didn't ..in words How do I feel with this thought...sick, sad, depressed, frustrated cause I can't tell her now, it is like a dark cloud over me always cause she is/was the one person in my life that seemed to care for/about me, feel like screaming at the top of my lungs- frustration- with not knowing if I will ever see her again (realized she does " visit " me as says:) How would I feel without thought in my life now? free to be with family and others, really be present with them and TELL them I love them and how much I care about them. Peaceful. maybe see some of what she seen in nature and people, have qualities like her?? can I see a stress free reason to keep the thought: I should have told her how much she meant to me and that I loved her? No...cause when it pops up I immediately have an overwhelming sadness, emptyness etc Turn around: I shouldn't have told her how much she meant to me and that I loved her...cause I didn't I DID tell her how much she meant to me and that I loved her..I was there helping her, taking her to the doctor, spending time with her, I did things and gave her things to make her feel better I should tell myself how much I mean to me and that I love me..yes it could be like a warm soft enveloping blanket. In turn I could love others. This work has helped so much...the hardest is not knowing if I will see her again...I have " beliefs " but as Adyashanti says beliefs are not reality...I don't know what is to come...I guess I can have hope but not attach to it so it takes away from my now. To the post about Mom and Movies...if you can...go NOW with her:) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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