Re: i shouldn't fear girls /alex

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> Dear Facy,

>

> good work! Thank you.

>

> And: yes, I do have to add something to your turnarounds:

>

> > T.A: i shouldn't fear myself

> > 1. thats a really strong one.

> > i fear myself.. my true self.. the one who have all those emotions

> > and fears.. i never let him out.. im hiding it so no one will

see, i

> > believe this 'true one' will bring the dooms day if i'd let him

out

> > of the closet.

> In what situation do you hide your true self most? And from whom?

How

> does that feel?

hmm..

allmost whenever im around people, everywhere i feel the need to

impress.. im not totaly honest cause i think my true self is whiny

misreble child which allways lack of love.. so im hiding it.

i dont want people to feel sorry for me or feel that they are better

than me.

how does it feel to hide it? it's hard.. i invest alot of energy and

i feel locked inside some prison.

>

> And...

> what exactly does dooms day look like?

well.. now that you mention it .. it looks like my life. im in it

allready..

oh ok.. there is one other thing that can happen that is even worse

than that.. that i will be umiliated in public, that people will see

that i am this lousy weak wierd insecure guy, and luagh at, and i

will know truly that i am this thing everybody wants to keep their

distance from.

so i more or less keep my distance from them automaticly before they

can do it to me.

>

> Let's have a look at your greatest fear.

>

>

> > T.A: girl shouldn't fear me

> > this is was brought this thought.. that i believe that i will

scare

> > them away, maybe it's mean i should let them make up their own

mind

> > and not interfering in their buisness's.

> how do you live your life when you think you have to hide yourself

in

> order for you not to scare them?

alone.

in fear, with greate anger toward myself that i can't bring myself to

be normal. with greate judgment on myself.

>

> And could you ever help them making up their mind?

>

> Didn't work so far, does it?

no.. it didn't.