visit with family

[Guest guest]

I just got back from a visit with my family whom I haven't seen in many

years. My 85yr old grandma had a heart attack on the 27th and it is now just

getting to me (we only live 34 minutes away). As you can tell I am not well

connected to my family anymore. About a year ago I had a falling out with my

family-one member said I got sick to get my mom's attn which is strange

since my mom doesn't give anyone attn when they are sick ( thought my

illness was highly suspicious since it was episodic)and the other said I was

sick because I didn't eat enough and didn;t go to the docs and take my meds

etc (anyways this was way before diagnosis when I was feeling sick but they

coudn't give me anything definitive except that I had abnormal lab scores).

Anyways the whole time I was there today they said I was too skinny and that

I should eat more. That I should get some help with the kids and take better

care of myself. I should eat . I should rest and sleep as if everything was

my fault or all those above things were going to cure me......but no

acknowlegement or questions about the disease and what it does to me or even

discussion of treatment-except for one comment of doctors can cure anything

now you should find the right doctor . They even said to me-don't you even

care about how sad it would be for the kids to be without a mom. I had to

tune them out after awhile. I just got tired of the all you need to do is

eat and gain some weight-actually they basically said Eat more and kept

jamming food in my face when I wanted to just yak. Anyways I am back home

and I don't think I want to go back again at least not for a LONG time.

Unless if its to ask for a kidney or something like that ;)/

Carolyn