Guest guest Posted January 3, 2008 Report Share Posted January 3, 2008 Hi all, I am now counting down the days. I have about 72 days left. No help yet. I am sick with a bad cold now, so sick I am just sitting here crying like a stupid baby. It is cold here, the snow is still on the ground. My electric bill is astrinomical, and I cannot pay that or my water. I am still trying to find housing. I have come across a few options, a free single wide mobile in a park, but I can't get the lady to call me or email me back since new years day. Plus the rent is $400.00 for the space, which would leave me with about $250.00 a month to live off of, utilities and all. I'd lose my food stamps, which have gone down to $156.00. My friend Diane won't let me end up in the street, but it isn't the ideal situation. Then she proposed to her mother, who is 82 and living alone in a two story house in a suburb of Chicago. I could move out there and take care of her, she is pretty self saficient, but needs someone there. There are two rooms upstairs, and I wouldn't have to pay for anything. But it's Chicago, and my family is here. My grandson especially. My son and my daughter, surprise surprise, don't want me to go. My son is worried about my health, as his wife also has Hashimoto's and almost lost her to a blood clot in her lungs. My daughter is trying to help me find work. My son doesn't think at this time I can work. I feel so useless, I used to do so much, horses and farming, gardening, biking, now I can't even drive anymore and I seem to get worse each day. I used to be the one helping people like me. Now I am people like me. I guess I am in denile, hoping some type of miracle will happen. I honestly get to the point where I feel so bad and like such a loser I wish I would just die already. But then my grandson or my doggies cuddle me and comfort me, and I realize they need me. Even Diane, who can be harsh, doesn't want me to leave. I have never been where I am, and have no clue how to fix this. And I am so sick of thinking about it. There are so many people homeless and sick, and I just go on and on about me. So selfish. I miss my dogs Sammy and Jessie, and I miss my life. I just want to be happy and safe. Thought I'd taken care of that with my home, but I lost it anyway. Haven't even packed anything yet. Thanks for you're prayers and thoughts, it's sad that the world has come to this, people who don't know you care more about you then your community. I can't tell you how many times I have been hung up on by people who's job it is to help people in situations like me. Just don't know what will happen. I will try to be more involved in the group. Thank you and bless you all, Dayle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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