Guest guest Posted June 21, 2008 Report Share Posted June 21, 2008 Todd doesn't accept me for who I am 1, yes where's your proof? i can't find any 2, no 3, i feel angry, unloved, belittled, i feel alot of energy in my chest and top of my head/ i argue with him in my mind i treat myself as if there is something wrong with me, i try and fix myself, i try and improve upon myself. i feel angry at him and as if i have something to live upto, i feel pissed at him, i try and be who i think he wants to be with. i get to blame him and stay over there in his business, i get to believe if i could just get him to change his mind and accept me then i'd be ok. ok i'll question that ( if he accepts me i'll be ok) 4, freer, in my business, calm, loving myself even when i'm feeling needy, being ok with me, unconcerned about who does and doesn't accept me. not seeking anyones acceptance but my own . T.A he does accept me for who I am 1, truer he's accepted that I feel needy right now 2, he loves the fact that i question my mind and try to own my own shit 3, he still wants to hang out with me. T.A I don't accept him for who he is 1, yes when he doesn't want to be with me i take it personally and reject him in my mind 2, yes i'm not so keen on this new less vulnerable todd 3, yes i want him to be how i want him to be and when my story doesn't match up then i don't accept him T.A I don't accept me for who I am. 1, truer, i tell myself i shouldn't feel so needy 2, i told myself i shouldn't have been so direct and clear in my speaking my truth because i think it drove him away. 3, i think i need a relationship to make me happy. todd should accept me for who I am 1, yes 2, no 3, i'm in his business, angry, i feel slighted. demanding, righteous. i get to believe i'd feel better if he did 4, loving myself, having faith in myself, not beating up on myself when i'm needy, free to be me. not trying to get acceptance or love from him, being honest, clear and asking for what i want. if i could never believe this thought that anyone should accept me for who i am then i'd be perfectly free to be whoever i was in the moment. T.A He shouldn' accept me for who i am 1, yes it has nothing to do with me 2, it's his business who he accepts 3, it helps me wake up from this dream T.A I should accept him for who he is. 1, yes i haven't been very good at that so time to have some humiity here. 2, i should accept he doesn't want to spend so much time with me now 3, i have found it hard to acept that he has changed his mind about me T.A I should accept me for who I am 1, yes cut out the middle man as katie says 2, yes especially when i'm needy and insecure 3, and when i'm not accepting him to love and have compassion for myself even then, any feedback welcome pipxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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