I'm soooo tired... (venting)

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I see and know of so many people that are sick... but none of them will take me

seriously...

My family... I'm the youngest of six... I have two genotypes that are

susceptible to mold but they all seem to think it's just me... Granted I've

always been the odd one out... They have dark straight hair and I have blonde

curly... their heavy set, I'm closer to average build... big f-ing deal!!...

I'm still their sister!... in fact any of them that have spent any time in the

house during the removal of the carpets has gotten sick in on way or another but

they refuse to think that it is from the carpet removal... or that they could be

like me..

One of my brother's offered me to stay with him after my attempted to return to

my parents... When I arrived at his house his older son answered the door and

directed me upstairs to see his mother... I stepped in the door and the first

thing I saw was a four foot water mark in the corner of the room... as I

ascended the stairs I noticed another horizontal water mark along the opposite

wall... I did all I could to convince myself that it wasn't that bad and to not

freak out I know I was being stupid... But it was late. I needed a bed. It had

been a long horrible day... When I entered the room my sister in-law was

cleaning the room (embarrassed by the dust... I tried to convince her to just

leave it... it just made me feel guiltier and guiltier)... During our strained

conversation (we never really got along very well) she mentioned that these

leaks are still on going... so I stayed the night (with the window in my room

wide open and the ceiling fan on high)... First thing in the morning I packed my

things and left. I explained why to my sister in-law and told her how concerned

I was about them... and she asked that I speak to my brother about the

situation... Don't they see what I'm going through... I know he won't listen to

me... I'm just his " baby " sister... How can I make him see/understand what a

dangerous situation he and his family is in?...

Nobody wants to hear... I listen to friends describe their illness... IBS,

Fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, lyme disease... but none of them will even check

out Shoemaker's site...

My former co-workers must all think I'm crazy...

I'm just exhausted... I want to help them... but I'm only banging my head

against the wall...

Then there's fighting with doctors, insurance companies, lawyers, public

assistance and SSI...

It's just never ending...