tired of more pain

[Guest guest]

This is the only place I know where to vent my frustration of my problems

with so much pain. I have spastic bladder and it's gotten worse. I can't

have intercourse with my husband any more due to the pain so I went to my

doctor. I have the beginning of prolapse and am taking estrogen vaginally,

which the doctor has said should take care of this problem. However, she

doesn't think it's the only cause of my pain. She believes I might have

interstitial cystitis. I looked it up and just anted to cry. There's no

real cure. Some of the things that help it don't sound so great either.

Then, to top things off I went to the local health food store. I went to

buy the ph testing strips and a few other things. I hadn't eaten yet so

checked out their soups that they make. I read the ingredients to

everything. They had one soup I could actually eat and was so jazzed.

Mushroom Asparagus soup, yum. I went to the car and started eating it and

realized my mouth was on fire! I went back in and asked what exactly was in

the soup. Well, it turns out they used Spike. That has cayenne and

possibly chili peppers, I don't remember. I just remember going out to the

car again and sobbing. Why? I know that I'll start having pain in a couple

of hours and that it will last 3 weeks.arthritis. So, in my depressed state

I went and bought a double chocolate chip frappicino and am developing IBS

as I type. Okay I knew the latter would happen so I did a 'stupid.' But, I

went into my old mode of getting depressed and eating to get out of it. Of

course it doesn't work.

Sorry this is so yucky,

Jane