OT: rant: I cannot believe it's all come back

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Hi all, I'm sorry to be off-topic. I guess I just hope anyone can send a word of

comfort. I am so angry. I left to go to my MIL's, and felt so much better. My

dizziness, vertigo, ear pain, sinus pain, had etc. left. I started Cipro for my

two infections. I had a small episode of allergies from petting and kissing

cats, but otherwise felt, relatively speaking, great. I get back to the moldy

condo, and what happens? Some allergies, no big deal, just some eyes weeping,

nose running. Okay, I can deal with that, I think. After all, I have a cat here,

maybe she's made me sick and I'll just have a few allergy symptoms like at my

MIL's. Maybe most of my symptoms were related to the infections, I think. Maybe

they seemed worse than they really were, I reason. Oh, no. Symptoms after

symptoms have piled up through the night. My skin itches all over, my ear canals

feel like someone is drilling through them, the bridge of my nose and cheeks

feel like a fist is inside, pushing out against my skin. My skin starts burning

up, I feel really sick, and for the first time I have a fever. I'm just so

upset. I don't know how much more evidence I need, or how many more times it

will take for me to leave and feel halfway normal again, only to return and feel

the onslaught, for me to realize that this building is sick. Sick to me, sick to

my cat, sick to my husband (though not as much as to me).

Does this happen to anyone else--do you go through this thing where you leave,

feel better, start thinking it's not as bad as you think, and then return and

wonder why in the heck you ever questioned yourself?

It's just so hard because I am an evidence-based person, a skeptic at heart.

This whole thing puts me into mental gymnastics. I have my own evidence--at

least, a strong correlation, which is all anybody has without absolute cause and

effect--but it is so hard for me because as has been said so often, I will never

have certainty. I suppose nothing is certain, though. There is evidence for all

sorts of scientific theory we accept as fact, but not necessarily a

cause-and-effect-level of certainty. Sigh.

Thanks for reading.