Am I still alive?

[Guest guest]

Well yes I am. I have stayed off line and pretty much shut down for some time

now. I have been verydissapointed in myself due to the either lack of interest

or possibly just giving up. I am pushing 5 years now of dealing with this and

you have seen me in and out due to heavy bouts of either depression or something

else i dont know about. needless to say not being able to afford to go back to

Shoemaker and continue treatment has really gotten to me.

For the new members that do not know me I am throwing this in here as I supose a

reminder that you will go through many things and that is apparent but the worst

thing is to get away from the support that you get here. It doesnt help the

illness any but if nothing else your spirits can be lifted if at least a little.

Nobody cares as much as the people here do and I can attest to that 100%. People

who have not gone through this have no comprehension nor care or half the time

believe what is going inside of you unless your heart stops beating.

Stay stong folks as I am trying to myself.

On a side note. I see something about water again and I want those who can

afford it to NOT dismiss the perfection of the Ecoloblue water filter. I have

had mine about a year now and I cant even drink other water. Nothing compares...

Good luck all and I hope I can muster my self enough to begin to check in more

often as I myself need the support.

Chris...