What mold has done to me (part 2)

[Guest guest]

I was so focused on telling my story about mold when I first joined these groups

that I left out a crucial element to my MCS problems.

Two and a half years ago I tragically kept using these Made in China flip flops

that left black dye on the soles of my feet. I had already returned another

pair because they left a slick feeling on my feet that made me slide on the

carpet, and I was exasperated that I would have to return these too. So I

washed my feet and washed the flip flops thinking that would do the trick. But

the dye just kept coming off. I tried washing again. As the days passed I

thought I wasn't reacting to it and that perhaps it was benign. Well, of course

it wasn't.

It was weeks later before I figured out I was reacting to the dye and by then it

was too late. It affected my nerves to such an extent that I was unable to

move. I was in constant neurological distress causing severe anxiety, panic and

fear. I could not move or exert myself at all without terrifying neurological

and cardiac symptoms and everything had to be done or me. Going to the bathroom

was traumatic. I became very reactive, even to food cooking.

For weeks after I quit using the flip flops there appeared what looked like

extremely fine black sand in my bed. My neurological symptoms were so severe I

could not tolerate my body or hair being washed for many months. My skin was so

flaky it was like snow around me when I went to the bathrom. I still cannot

wash and my clothes are thickly lined with greasy flakes of skin.

It was about a half year later that the foam mattress I spent 24 hours a day in

became moldy and caused me to become even more reactive. The last two and a

half years have been a rollercoaster of getting better, getting worse, getting

better, getting worse. Each time I go down it's worse than the time before. I

have stayed reactive all this year as opposed to last year gaining a measure of

tolerance after I did foot baths and resumed my protocols. I was safe for half

a year.

The worst part of this horrid trial has been emotional, but I had wonderful help

there. I was taught all these different emotional releasing techniques by the

health professional that used to treat me and they really saved me through.

Would not have made it without them or without the greatest help of all, God's

holy spirit. I prayed a lot.

I have learned now through all of this that if I continue the foot baths and the

antifungals and rotate them that the mold does not prevent me from taking my

probiotics or glutathione. But if the mold exposure I am currently experiencing

at my brothers home continues much longer I don't know if that will last. I

have to hope that a dehumidifier will help as I have nowhere else to go for the

time being.

Yesterday I tried the attic apartment above my dad's garage so I could see if I

had gained enough tolerance to be there. My dad worked for decades in that

garage as a self employed body man and contamination of those chemicals are in

the attic above as well so I'm not able to be there. I lasted 3 hours before I

started reacting. Better than the one hour six months ago.

So there it is. The rollercoaster ride is not over yet.