Disembodied feelings from leaving everything behind.

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Does anyone else experience this?

Im finding it hard to keep leaving everything behind all the time. I guess we

become attached to our belongings as they remind us of who we are. How do others

deal with this?

I feel like leaving everything behind makes me a bit crazy. I dont know how to

keep dealing with it. Im very tempted to just take the few belongings i have

with me. The problem also is that with mcs its extremely expensive to buy new

ORGANIC bedding and clothing everytime i move. I have say 5k savings and buying

a few items of clothing and bedding costs $500 each time. Then there is the

issue of supllememts, shoes etc etc,

I almost feel i'd rather die than having to keep dealing with the anxiety any

more and the disembodyment feelings i get when leaving everything behind. As

well the worst reactions i get seem to be to outdoor mold and aspergilis on

vegies like onion which seem hard to avoid.

Also after moving and hopefully establishing a mold free, and other contaminant

free environment does this mean we have to wash everytime we go out into society

and come back home?

Has anyone with severe symptoms just taken thier stuff and somehow recovered

without going to extreme avoidane?

I keep asking myself is the goal to avoid everything and everone or to somehow

build some semblance of health and resistence back whilst perhaps still getting

mild exposure from belongings. Id much rather go down that path even if it takes

10 times as long to get better than extreme avoidance but dont want to get

worse.

I feel like im going insane and feeling suicidal occasionally. I cant fathom how

to live a happy life if im leaving everything behind and obsessively washing

things all the time and worrying about cross contamination. Really whats the

point of living if beibg in a constant state of fear about all this and with

others not understanding and thinking more and more that you are either ocd or a

psych case. Next time i move it will be away from everyone that i love, i have

lost my job, relationships, accommodation, savings etc.

I could really do with some kind words/ comfort.