Re: Re: A little rant in response

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Ugh, you face such a huge dilemma--see your loved ones and risk illness or keep

them away. What an isolating experience this is. I worry about bringing this

stuff to other places. I was reading tonight about how Aspergillus hyphae are so

small they move like gas. I was reading, too, that opening windows can cause

convection currents that make a second floor unit more moldy than a first floor

unit when the source of mold is in a basement--and you know what? I feel

isolated by knowledge. What good does this do me? When an expert has the

knowledge, and you try to get a little of it, they slap you down. Do you know

what my dentist said to me? That I'm impressionable. Well, yeah, that's what

makes me a writer. But this knowledge about Aspergillus? The people who need to

understand--the co-owners of my condo building--don't want to hear it.

It is so tough on my husband and I. I worry about the stress--I have never seen

him so low. It's difficult because the people who could help--who hear me cough

and see how drawn my face is and how dark the circles are under my eyes--those

people who could help but refuse--I live with them, in a sense. As I say, this

is a small building with four units. And now, because of the ongoing argument,

the other owners have decided to hold a meeting without us. Totally

illegal--against the bylaws of our homeowner's association and the laws of our

state--but what can I do about it?

They don't care about me, my husband, or my beloved cat, who has had two bouts

of allergic bronchitis. I get so tired of other people's egos and defenses. I

get sick of people needing the spotlight, needing more money, more and more

money, needing to be right, needing to be the head honcho, the go-to guy, the

important person. What is it all for? Who can carry pride to the grave? My heart

breaks. I help people without having to be paid for it. I make sure I do the

best job I can and I don't always get paid for it. Why don't others do that? Why

do lawyers need so much money, and experts, and doctors--what happened to

service, to being one's brother's keeper, to charity and love of fellow humans?

People think that all we have to do is be logical and informative and these

co-owners will see the light--which I thought, too, six months ago. But no, they

don't care about facts. They care about having to shell out the money to fix

things. Tonight, I realized just how far they will go when I learned that they

have held a meeting *and* voted on an expenditure without us.

Ah, forgive this rant. I will rename the topic to reflect it. I meant to be a

comfort to you and ended up having a fit. Sorry, Dana. I am so weary--I guess I

just totally understand your emotions. I am having them too. All of them. God,

I'm sick of it...

Thanks An, i know the answers arent easy to come by but it does help to talk.

Yes its the expense of having to replace everything. I have so much i could take

with me that could help... Supplements which are undoubtably helping my health,

organic bedding etc. Its so frustrating to leave it behind. Sorry that you are

facing similar dilemas.